Today channel U and I last day le.. its such a pity... channel U shows were forever entertaining can.. its such a waste lor... is like most of the show either funny if not entertaining if not educational.. now don ve le such a pity lor.In future ve to watch those shows from channel 8... once switch on the channel then see ppl quarrel in the show... the tot of it feel so sick man... further more shaun chen don ve le...Aargh!!!!! My shuai ge!!! What the hell what the hell!!! Hmm... ppl say channel u shows are for aunty please lor... tht one is only the taiwan show... others are not lor... at least the shows here, the way they put it don sound so crude man...seriously base on such a small channel yet they r able win so many awards.. this is what a top quality channel is lor... aagh.. the tot of "channel-u-no-more" sound so sick aargh!!!

Today 5th mth le... didnt know tht we will come tht long way together...u complete me though =D
Working everyday... sianx.. wana go owling someday... haha then let out my frustration thru bowling =X hahax... very full now.. very tired haha ve not been having enough slp.. kekex... take care ppl! Me go be pig first then can work hahax.. take care!

okie i jux saw some crap on a blog..actually its not crap but is rather logical(no is 100% logical), too bad its becoz of the person who wrote it thts why it looks like crap to me.okie i really laugh. Well this person wrote smth in it tht i really think the person shld go and reflect upon him/herself... hmm how true can tht advice be when they themselves are doing it(or use to? not sure if tht person is still doing it)? *shrug

Hehex...yest christmas eve.. went out with paul.. go suntec watch Kung Fu then went Millenia Walk to walk walk.. not bad.. the place is BEAUTIFUL at nite! Love the fountain =) Heex... nite light at esplanade is really beautiful too =) Glad tht i can stay out late tht nite =)

Today christmas.. merry christmas to my dearest best frenx,boyfren, secondary sch frenx, primary sch frenx, my hamster, all the cats.. yada yada...crap crap... -.-" Anyway Merry Christmas to everyone!!! May all ur wishes come true =D

Quote: "It hurts to love someone but not to be love in return
But wat is most painful is 2 love someone and not
finding the courage to let the person noe how u feel..."

Well got this from the internet email... haha..finds it quite true lor.. so put it up here =)So ppl time for some conclusion haha... if u ve not let the person know how much u love him/her its time to do so now before its too late =) Take care ppl!! =D

Yeah!! Finally got tht T630!! muahaha!

Muahaha... FINALLY I BOUGHT MY BABY BLUES COMICS! Whee!! Haha.. oh man! Its so cool can tht comics. Haha.. can lend paul also coz both of us LOVES tht comic wahaha! Hmm yest went times book shop to buy alot of stuff.. Total cost:179++ *gasp! But got 20% off so Total Cose: 150.65 okie i don ve so much money lah.. is use voucher one haha mum bought 3 soft toy lol... the body small small leg big big animal soft toy. Its really cute actually haha. Bought Joyce present already(finally!)Paul say no need buy his go out and eat can le... so not buying his... left one more person haven buy.. cannot say name haha...Still trying very hard to find a present for him leh... but still cannot find so dono... keep finding lor.. if cannot find then maybe nv buy...Oh yah.. yest my dad scold me for Hp bills. Actually is no big deal lor if u all see the bill.. is 30++ but as my dad say he nv see ppl use "SO MUCH sms"(1200) b4 so well..got scolded lor. He ask me go buy new phone and subscribe a new line.. so well i kinda happy actually coz can buy new phone heex... But my money u know!!! Hmm nvm since i working... so i pay lor.

Hmm i realise my life is quite perfect now... hmm maybe not so perfect...nono or rather near perfect? dono? lets list them out the pts eh?

1) I ve got a job (Ping! +1 pt)
2) I ve nth to worry now (+ 1 pt)
3) I ve got a bf...=X (+ 2 pts)
4) I ve got quite a bunch of greatest frenx ( + 2pts)
5) My mum seldom qn me abt paul, infacts she LIKes him (+2 pts)
6) I keep over use my phone bills (-1 pt)
7) I ve to think of smth to lie(-2 pt)when i go out
with paul(-1)

well lets add up... 1 + 1 + 2+ 2 + 2 - 1 - 2 -1
= 4
See.. so its not too perfect and not to bad either =) well i m contented this way heex. Well gotta go enjoy my rest... cya guys ard..

Yippee!! GOt my second pay today =) Way to go gal! hahax so glad tht i didnt make much mistake yest.. well partly becoz yest don ve much ppl... hahax. Yest had spagetti for dinner.. well.. don WAH! let me finish.. is spaggetti from 7-eleven...-__-" the tot of it makes me feel kinda sick.. now i m thinking what i shld ve... i m craving for pop corn chicken can!!! JOyce fault lor.. yest nite msg me say eat what KFC.. -.-" now i feel like eating yet dinner time not very nice to go al the way to westmall and take a billion yrs to queue for tht pop corn chicken.. sianx.. if only it can call for delivery haha.. stop dreaming. lolx.. not bad.. not got money buy present.. stil haven buy for 3 ppl haha.. shall not list out who.. heex.. alright gotta stop here.. my nose extremely ITCHY!!! Aaarghhhh CCCHhhheeeWWWW!!!!!!!

hahha before i sound ungrateful better type something nice here heex... so joyce, ur nxt msg shld be "luckily u r still alittle grateful" hahahax. Okie, not bad ah yest... time pass quite quickly and not much of a mistake was made =)(weelll... if u don count those I.C which were printed in the wrong sides =X) hahax.. Jonathan drop by yest with his fren =) Its really nice of him to do tht, haha pity tht i wont be a ble to tok to him haha coz i was busy with tht "million" pages book. Hahax thnx for coming jon, hopefully i will be able to drop by when u found a job=) okie the tot of tht makes me kinda guilty ah coz my working hrs doesnt allow me to drop by unless he works in the morning then can lor =D hehex yest reach home quite early... kinda guilty for "dumping" joyce at the int while i rushed for my bus.. haha u guys shld see how i jump off the bus and rush home... dump my bag and rush to bath immediately and come out then stuck on the phone till 10.25pm.. heex. Coz Paul work in the morning mah... so nxt day cant chat with him... hahax. Now on the phone mux ve time slot one =x NOrmally chat with jon n joyce in the morning lor. HMm jux called hui xian jux now.. haha she went interview yest, hope she will be empolyed then i can go there "disturb" her. Heex coz she maybe selling labtops.. haha so maybe i shld ask her what are in brands of the internal parts inside the labtop =X wahaha.. lol if she was employed maybe i will drop by to support her too =D Nxt week christmas party ppl! Don forget k! heex... and don forget to buy the present of whom u guys ve picked out =) Cya guys there on weds!

Tired

Hmm serene u work le ah? Where u working? hahah which vincent was tht? went to heston blog today... then saw his list of frenx go press for fun in the end press lingta blog then saw him leaving the tagboard there say what he go sydney then result come out then he come back. i was like huh? since when he go sydney one haha *blurt dono? Start working yest... okie... time working hrs are reasonable...pay reasonable... boss not bad... but i ve ALOT TO COMPLAIN! okie i know i know.. at least i ve work haha so i shldnt complain lah. But work from 3pm to 9pm!!! ppl go home enjoy then i start work lor... i wan morning 9am to 3om one then she say what already got ppl take le.. what the hell lor... she say tell me tht time slot when i go interview one can! WHAT THE HELL! Me now don even feel like going to work lor. Then at nite cannot even tok to paul anymore coz its like he go work then i at home then i go work then he at home... totally cannot tok at all haix.. by the time i come home he need to slp soon le...now i don even feel like going to work can... the tot of going home tht late and not be able to tok to paul makes me feel so sick ah.. but at least weekend no need to work.. if need i screamed ah!!!! Haha i like love sick like tht so don bother me hehex. Yest first day work already print alot of wron thigns can... what the hell... haix... hope today will do better lor and will end work earlier.. m prepared to rush home today heex... so at least ve more time to tok to him ah.. don wan him to wait so long coz he need to slp wor...hmm... sat go escape! Yippee!!! so happy... but till now still dono who wanna go leh... later end up me and paul go haha... ppl.. faster pray for me tht the person working in the morning will faster quit then i can ask the person to transfer me to the morning one... pray pray pray!!! i Wan the morning slot badly aargh!!!!!!!!! I WAN THE MORNING SLOT!!!!!! I WAN I WAN!!!! sobx sobx... hmm later need to work le... sianx..........alright shall end here... =) buaix

I seriously had enough. I m so pissed. so damn pissed! My mum is being unreasonable. OKie let me clarify..its not tht i don wan to pay for my com... i ve agreed to pay for half the amt can! My pay is only $400 lor...Since this morning she has being saying tht i spoil my com..like i wan the com to be spoilt! Like i wan to invite all the viruses in... i don ve virus scan for god sake lor! i cant even dl those regular update coz tht com keep hanging. Yah so its all my fault for spoiling the com and all my fault becoz i m the only one using... fine fine my fault... my fault. So she said tht since i need a new com she is going to deduct half of my salary to pay for the com. HALF!!! my pay is 400!! half of it lefts me 200 bucks.... how m i going to surivive u guys teach me!She jux love to repeat everything paul say can! for god sake... ppl say for fun only lor! Then he said smth abt paying the com... he say it to saboh me one can.. n now i really got saboh! She said i shld LEARN FROM HIM, learn how to save money. Please lor! who dono among so many frenx i m the only one who refuse to spend too much money on stuff lor. i see smth i like i also refuse to waste money can.. take tht damn necklace ffrom bits and pieces.. i didnt even buy can! 2 hundred bucks from my pay is jux too much. I told her tht i will give her the money at the end of the mth cause this is the first time i m having my pay so i don even know how much will be enough for me. Then she say " wah! 200 bucks so much not enough for u izzit." Plz lor.. what she expect... 200 bucks include meals, hp bills, transport plus going out with her i also pay my meals can! She wan me everyday eat bread for lunch izzit. I was so speechless can. Seriously i was not very please yest when paul said "what he is not suppose to say" yest lor... i expect what happen today to happen can! Let me clarify lor.. i m not stingy can... i nv say i don wan to pay for my com can! i jux wan to know how much is enough for me! Ask her one shot deduct from my acct she also don wan. then what she wan lot! Now paul also pissed i think... and i dono whats the reason.. probably becoz i blame him for what he said... then my mum still think 200 bucks is what i shld give her for the com every mth. Thnx lor... everything my fault lor.. com also my fault lor... yah me.. everything also me...

hahax.. had a really really sweet dream today. Guess what i dreamt abt Jay chou... haha i dreamt tht he ask me to be his gf!! Ha! What a funny dream! haha let me clarify, i m not those big fan of his who collected his every cds and dreamt of him becoming my prince ok! Jux tht dono why got such funny dream haha. Wake up then got the feeling of being love.. muahaha so swweeettt!! okie stupid me haha! Oh yah... cant shake tht image of the thing i saw at bits and pieces tht time at orchard.. saw it twice can!!!! Actually see a few times le... very nice ah!!! Aargh! but nvm... what thts not mine will not be mine... so no pt thinking of how beautiful it is..aargh!!

Hmm today... rotting at home.. since the first day paul work i began to rot le haha... only advantage i is get to save my msges.. but didnt save much lah. Haix... like dint really get to communicat coz he too busy le. Then sat and sun go sch..only chat a bit only. i think i better faster go and find work ah.. if not i will start thinking all sorts of thngs haha...sianx.. sianx... sianx

Embarrassed... embarrassed..Aargh!

So.... yesterday was the prom... how interesting... am the most "embarass+lucky" person of the day... hahax. Alright... hmm so here it goes.... morning went to do our hair with hx and joyce...hmm cost only 5 bucks! Cheap right? no.. is too cheap to be true.. hahax.. okie i doubt her skills at first... but she tie le still not bad ah so...*grin =D(well..save tht grin if u can imagine my frustration when i tried to wash my hair last night....ONE BIG MESS!!!!) Heex... we were saying tht my hair is like chicken backside and joyce is like duck one(mean right?)... hx one i fogrot le =X hmm so they came over to my house and watch Wishing Stairs and ate lunch at my house haha. Well i don ve to tell ya what happen when ya eating lunch at my house... those who ve come often "enough" shld understand what my mum means by "help urself". haha.. when she said help urself.. she really mean it.... well u shld see how full joyce was and hx... haha nobody ever left my house hungry if they eat lunch at my house =X hmm... *fast forward..... (2.45pm) start to make up lor... mum ve help me get my "hair + the head" into my shirt. haha hx was clever enough to wear a button up shirt... lolx. HElp he 3 of us make up and stuff.... take pics, prepare.. yada yada and we r done. Set off to joyce's house in taxi.. haha shld see the way we walk and u will know how hilarious it was. We were like "jelly legs" can? as in "wooble wooble" lol unstable hahax. Hx almost lost her balance when she wear er shoe and climb up the stairsw muahahahaha! =X (alright save the laughter to the end) Went joyce house, keep her stuff, still got time so see photos. JOyce last time so cuttteeeeee can?!?! hahaha chubby chubby... *pinch pinch muahaha. Then 5.30pm her dad fetch us... go alll the way to tuas to fetch her mum and then to sch. Reach there not a single soul cld be seen(well i nv count the guys in =X) Went to hide in the.... TOILET?!?!?! well.. yes the toilet... luckily its clean ENOUGH! Wait for chinchin they all to come then go upstairs lor... not bad ah the hall very nice yada yada.... *fast forward... yeah so then we got the dance items, the bands performing, lucky draw(*sigh) and the Singapore Idol(YEAH! Taufik won!!!). We had buffet for dinner. Not bad lah the stuff jux tht the fish taste... errr.....weird?(or shld i say horrible?) the rest all very nice.. oh yah the spagetti.. extra SOUR! Too much tomato i guess heex. The chocolate puffs are the best!*droolx. So yeah we got this lucky draw thingy(the best thing has yet to come... our table seems to be the one tht won the most price) Xue li was the first to get pick among us haha she got herself a price... hahax... its a hello kitty.. macdonald one(rmb the time when everyone is fighting over the hello kitty?) hahax.. we cant stop laughing. So we had dinner, and melissa cc and xl heard tht got 2nd round of lucky draw.. so they faster go toilet hahax... then second time our table one of us got pick again...(cant rmb who) after tht.. another round... "best thing" is the whole of 4-01 went to take photo.. so.. left me ALONE at the table.. to collect 3 rounds of priZes.. so this time mel, chin and wan qing got a prize haha... ppl mux be wondering why i keep winning prizes... nvm...still got somemore. Watch Singapore idol.. watch watch then..... the first priZe.... mux get 5 person up.. then pick one envelop... the one with the star will win a prize... well.. the prize is 21 INCH TV! Haha.. we were laughing can.. i was like haahhax.... who cld be tht "lucky" person to carry tht box home can... then tee lin got pick to go up to the front.. followed by two guys.. then claire.. i was like telling hx.. "haha... dono who will get tht tv.. if its a gal har.. i died laughing man.." and we were like taking a bet who will win tht thingy home. Haha so four were pick.. left one... and we were like haha... safe already.. one only.. no big deal... wont be ask one.. coz the whole night it has been 012something number got pick.. this time surely wont be one.. haha. Well.. in the midest of laughing.. tht host up there said... 0-1-2-1!!!!! I FAINTX CAN!!!!! Stunned stunned stunned... stuck on the chair somemore... the rest of them? Laugh their head off of coz....-.-" "he who laugh first laugh last.." well said..-.-"""" too bad lor... i went to the front... hahax.. i was like... wont be tht bad lah... surely wont get tht tv one... anyway i was the last to get the envelop mah hahax.. so the good one shld be they take liao. Well... claire open hers...no star(uh-oh, haha one only no worries), then tee lin opened hers...no star?!?! (oh no!) then the other 2 guy were like waiting for me to open... so i open and they opened... and... i saw something... POINTY! Aarrrgghhhh!!!! i close tht envelop can!!! And tht host said "whoa looks like the gal in white has won the 21 inch tv!!!! *laughter laughter laughter... i was like so embarassed and shocked can.... can see how red and big my eyes were? -.-" Sneak a glimpse at hx they all.. they were laughing till their head were dropping soon....thnx eh? for the wonderful support -.-" okie.. so i was suppose to go up the stage to "claim" my prize.. and i was like har?!?! m i going to carry tht home?!?!?! or down the stage ?!?! -.-" what the lor.. haha. Then me and the prom king and queen were like err.. what to do on the stage....(if only the hall will open to eat me up) thnx god the host save me can... he said ask me go back to my seat first and gif my addy to someone later.... thnx GOD!!! I walk damn fast down can.... and well.. joyce and hx they all were laughing so hard tht i was like freaking embarrass.. i guess alot of ppl laugh too.. *gosh! so i went back.. sat down... bury my head to laugh and hide my embarassment... Aargh!!!! mux learn not to laugh at pther ppl nxt time. But not bad lah.. tv leh.. haha my dad has been "fighting" over the tv in my living room with my mum for quite sometime hahahhax.. so well wish granted =D. hahax so asked joyce father to carry tht thingy home... joyce parents were laughing too hahax... weell enough of the embarassing+lucky thingy lah... joyce can still laugh when she sees me today.. shld thnx her properly eh?
today...
was suppose to join Natalie to go sing acappella with a bunch of ppl at jeremy's house.. if u read till the end.. u will know how funny and coward we are... damn.. its so embarassing and funny can? oKie met Natalie and er bunch of frenx today at serangoon.... had a bad feeling the first thing we step out of our house tht today is gonna be so embarassing. Its like we were damn nervous can? okie nvm.. so met natalie and we walk all the way to jeremy's house.. walk half way.. the more we walk the scarier it seems to be.. furthermore Natalie and her frenx were walking infront ah.. but then we feel kinda extra coz she didnt realy tok to us... so joyce beg me.. mind u really beg me to think of smth to run away b4 we reach jeremy's hous -.-" okie so we were really panicky ah.. i think tht guy saw us making plans for our "run-away" hahax.. so in the midest i called natalie and told her and her bunch of frenx tht we suddenly got a project coming up and pretend to asked her where how to go back and stuff... joyce was ready to run off already mind u.. hahaahhax... so the minute we said bye bye... we ran off!!!!!!! We ran so fast can? as if ppl coming after our life.. and we were laughing like mad ah.. we are coward ah i admit.. but we r not prepared.. haha nxt time shall bring more ppl... but nvm ah we were so happy abt our freedom can hahax. So well we headed for orchard to go walk walk lor.. now think abt it ah.. kinda regret ah.. coz they are nice ppl.. guess we will go nxt time bah.. now? not ready yet.. nxt week bah heex.

today sci suckx ah... keep it to myself whole day le.. feel so awful.. tell him he was like one or two msg to say don dismay blah blah then don ve le.... feel awful.... haix. Msg him he charge phone nv reply.... and he didnt even tell me... so i go online lor. Go online wan to chat with him.. in the end like nv chat much. He add me to shi conversation to chat together.. in the end got cha tno chat also no different, coz most of the time they chatting like forget me le, like kinda left out lor... so in the end also like tht. Close con window le after tht shi went offline le.. then he also say he wan to go and slp -.-" (i was like what the...) ask him chat with me 5 more mins.. so chat 5 more mins... and he wan to slp again...(what the..) so i ask him go and slp whatsoever while i plan how to suck thumb in front of the com so here i m lor. *sigh~ there goes my physic... haix...i cannot fail my chem ah.. if not i cant go to the courses i wan le... sobx... Aargh!!! somehow i jux wish tht he cld spend more time cheering me up ah... sian...

hmm.. now in the midest of olevel.. finally one week over le =D so happy muahaha! hmm so lotsa stuff to update keke... lets start from the day b4 social studies bah. Hmm monday.. went out to study with joyce and jonathan... go sch tot cannot go in.. so go all the way to macdonalds to study... JOanthan gave me a handphone chain.. hmm those metal handphone chain which ve ur name one...he gave it to me as a grdaution present... i see le kind of paiseh ah coz the one i gave him worth nth.. yet his present so expensive ah... so kinda paiseh... hmm very nice. hehe like it alot..haha its on my pencil case.. thnx! =)Social studies exam... quite easy bah.. so far every subject still alirght... except for today maths... ARGH!!! alot of careless mistakes!!!!! So fed up... cannot reach my expectation le bah..argh!! now mux depend on my paper 2... i wanna score very well for my emaths.. if not no hope le..=( Alvin gave me(or rather throw to me) the macdonal pink colour hello kitty today =D Didnt expect him to get it.. but its really nice.. i wan tht hello kitty for quite sometime le..=)Thnx alot! haha hx see le she also wan so alvin also get.. hohoho.. wonder how many extra value meals he is going to eat hahha... i wan tht blue, grey and white hello kittyl!!! its soooo cute!!!!! hehex.. greedy me =P alright.. thts all for now.. stupid msn cannot sign in.. hmph! Nice timing...

Graduation day...*sigh

Yest graduation day... end up walking ard westmall alone...sad rite? Ppl having party celebrating the last day in hyss me walking ard westmall alone hahax. Paul not free yest to acc me... haha so take 187 go home, half way weather decide to cry, think "touched" by our sch graduation ah... so it decide to STOP ME FROM GOING HOME!!! damn... so went westmall lor, Precious tots.. saw tht crystal ball.. now got other designs le.. SO NICE LOR!!! Anyone give me tht i cry to death hahax... rmb xin ya say she loves the crystal all also hahax. If only i own the precious moment boutique haha... love tht crystal ball so much lor! ANyone sees it will find it beautiful. Anyway, she went for interview yest to work in some crystal shop, hope she get the job bah =D today went to study at library.. got "chased" out by the librarian in the end.. end up at KFC in IMM. Went Diaso and saw alot of beautiful stuff to buy ah... hmm plan to get those wraping from there for our christmas party.. joyce already prepared le hahhaa.. if she got money she surely buy all the wrappings there.. hahax! hmm.. crystal ball crystal ball.. keke.. i sound like i m a gyspy eh? hehe vodoo? kekex! So bored, study study, got no life... *sigh.. weather so nice today... slp better =X cannot ah... He ask me to study in the end nv study later dui bu qi zi ji... hmm so studying now...*sigh...

haix.. tml i wanna go library study he not very happy ah.. he wan to study at his house so he can do project ah.. after tht he say wan go library in the end not very sincere ah... can sense his unhappy tone... haix.. i was like wondering why he ask me go his house i go then why i ask him come a place he like not very happy lor..coz he need to use internet to do project... then i accidentally send the msg to joyce to him ah... he see le also not very happy... i admit ah... to go to yio chu kang to study is alittle far... but i really prefer to study at library ah... m i inconsiderate.. hmm dono ah..hmm =(

Hmm so busy recently no time update blog.. hehe. Went to meet ~HIM~ today... went to eat at my fav stall b4 going over to his house ah... he say he got surprise for me... tot its biscuit.. in the end to my surprise(this time really surprise) he got me a eeyore imported from japan... i was like... stunned. Coz he say he broke le.. now then i know he broke b3coz he get me tht present... haha. Its imported from japan disney land.. the material very nice lor...tot he bluff me one.. but see the plastic bag then i know lor. hmm but its not the baby eeyore is the older one haha... but its really sweet of him. This is my 3rd eeyore form him le..(dear don waste money ah.. now u need to save le =) don worry ah... wont go and hunt to see if there is one in singapore.. don wan u suck thumb ah..=P) Hmm ve been really really busy this few weeks preparing for olevels..this few days kinda slack alittle =X HOpe i do well for olevel then i can go mad after tht =D Sianz.. now i will slogged hard for my olevels.. first bitter then sweet? chinese proverb.. hmm.. guess its true.. ppl jia you!!! think this is the last time i updating.. really last time haha lol.

hey guys.. will be studying studying... slogging sloggin for olevels this few weeks haha cya guys after olevel!!

this are the pics taken on lantern festival..*grin! stupid blog cannot upload pics one.. maybe my one sot already lah... nvm here izzit..

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My stupid blog cannot put up photos... tht time can now dono why cannot le... dotx! nvm.. i put them up at imagestation... so here r the pics from lantern festival one.. shall put up my bdae one when joyce gave me the pics.. *grin!

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Hmm thnx guys for celebrating my bdae with me =) i wanna thnx alot of ppl hahha... ok some ppl may find it lame but let me finish my thank you speech lol!lol Hx and alvin for their surprise lolx! hmm thnx joyce and jansen for getting my fav bag.. JOnathan,Thnx jonathan for getting the cat!! Its really NICE!!! And to acc me to count down for my bdae. yuan sheng, xueli, melissa, chin chin, xinya, audrey,jane, goi kiang, menghow for their wonderful presents!!!Hmm and also zhi xiang who rmb my bdae. Most importantly, Paul who spend time with me yest regardless of how sick you r... and end up getting more sick today.. thnx and sorry abt tht hehe!Yest alot of stuff happen..sad one no need write le. Yest haha, spend the whole day wondering why they all so fishy.. they give themselve away without realising =P then after sch, joyce for no reason say wanna go my house coz she don wanna go home haha after tht suddenly they pop their heads up on the window. My mouth open like hippo mouth tht big mind u haha. Hx, alvin,ys,xueli, chin chin pop in... so u can imagine how big is my mouth lah haha. They brought the presents haha and a cake.. so big lor! haha chocolates!! haha ve alot of fun taking pics and video =) Went to play basketball after tht *grin. Today, actually meet jonathan for movie one... in the end nv go. Was very unhappy since yest night, need to watch movie for a laugh. SInce jonathan asked long ago so wanna go today, in the end the time too late for me so nv go lor. Went mac with him and joyce, sit there and tok abt my probs.. ve been pestering them since day 1 tht even tht happen... hope i m not irritating.Sit there tok abt lot of things bah... from exams to other stuff haha. Then jonathan was like saying if i cry at other place can if i cry at mac ppl tot i bully me then hum tum him so he better faster run.. but haha he wont one lah. So he went to get ice cream.. in the end the stupid radio play the wrong song at the wrong time... The Reason was played.. in the end teared at mac coz it reminds me of him bah... dono why joyce also cry leh.. haha so we trying to cry and laugh at the same time hiding our face so jon wont see us like this when he came back. Haha.. u shld see his face... stunned! lol. Hmm.... HE went to collect results today.. thnx goodness its positive =) *grin smth to cheer up for. Today my exam results suck totally... 2 fail.. phy haven take back.. sure fail one no need to see... haix.. some ppl r jux so clever can.... no need to study also can make it.. me study till wana die also cannot make it. -_________-" haix i stupid can? really disappointed with myself bah... haix. Now feel so sick... nose stuck with a saw in my throat....-_-" gosh.. awful feeling haha. I really enjoy myself yest.. thnx guys for making it wonderful! THnx dear for celebrating with me despite tht u r sick..thnx guys..love u all!

Yeah~ tml he celebrating with me muahahha so happy! one week nv see him le! Looking forward to tml man~ wah i almoast cant go out lor... dad say how can i go out with him alone...-_-"" *speechless but nvm. ANyway, hope everything can goes well tml hehehe

Hmm.. feel a teeny weeny bit better when i woke up today! *smilex. He is coming over today with his cake... ... made for my mum -_-"" but i still get to eat it anyway hahhaa so whats the diff.=P Alright time to blog abt yest. Yest, went to study with joyce and jonathan, actualy fact.. when to study "the art of talking" coz we were crapping like nobodys business. Hahax. Felt much better when sitting down and toking to them, especially jonathan with his hillarious jokes and stuff. Hahax, then we saw 2 malay guys "flirting" with middle age woman... (or so we tot)haha then cant stop laughing. We tok abt sch stuff, funny stuff, movies, ghost film, police cops(jackie chan film), blah blahx.. haha, really enjoyed my self. But, haha nv done any maths though. Nxt time mux do some maths le, if not i m wasting jonathan's time. After tht go walk walk, go jurong entertainment coz jon wanna go find stanley... *surprise. See alvin, kok wee, xinru blah blah bunch of hua yians there ready for "battle", nah is half way thru "battle"... counter strike. haha. Went to library later.. then went to park with joyce...sit there and flood the place b4 heading home. =D Alright i seems so proud of myself tht i flooded the place -_-" Watch the nxt american top model. ONe of them was left behind. So sad for her... and was crying so badly and stuff.Guess she didnt know april wana go back to wake her up while the rest disagree..*shrug. Haix nvm... alrighty, thts all for today.. ta da!!Happy 2 mths dear.. muack!

WHY? Why? why?

Why mux things turn out this way? Life sux totally. Now we ve to make a decision... to take a risk, or to wait for things to chill before carry on. Either way, it will not be an easy one. We r waiting for the verdict tonight. He is not even hoome yet, tonight he will know the verdict... whatever the verdict is... its already arrange by god long ago... we cant change anything. We shall see how it goes. But i seriously think its not fair, to both of us. He tot so too... but too bad.. its the house rulex. ARGH!! And i got joyce into trouble today... coz she ve to acc me and i cry so hard in the park tht she dono what to do... then her father scold her when she got home.. i really got her into trouble.. i m feeling so guilty right now. PLx.. pray for me tht everything will be alright.. i m feling so crushed right now.. damn.

haix...today math... i can say i do until i almost cried... prelim surely gone le... hx they all don seems to feel tht i feel like crying wor... think i hide it to well. when ur chem, phy suckx.. u know whats coming for the report card. On the mrt... me also feel like crying... so i REN!!! Then meet him at Yio Chu Kang there...he tot i not happy becoz of last night wor.. haix. Then i say its becoz of my exam... then he tot i very stress and tired... he also cannot see tht i wan to CRY already!!! ARGH!!! After tht go home he still make fun of me..say some physic dono how to do stuff.. then my face change colour.. then he also tot i not happy/angry... is i wan to cry lor.... why he also cannot tell? Why nobody can tell?? Feel so awful the whole day. Then he go watch movie with a fren.. me feel kinda weird lor..haha who wont right? coz its a gal... then he kind of not very happy.. even though he say he is ok.. can tell one lor. He say wan to msg me in the movie, he say he will reply, in the end he say he wanna watch movie le. Then i think better don msg him bah, if not very distracting. So now i seat here bored... cancel renand tuition.. so now can suck thumb le. Wan to cry also cannot cry... dono cry to who. If i call joyce she sure say i cry very long one...call hx also cannot, coz i think she studying. so argh! Suck thumb lor. Argh.. nvm. Now reading his letter.. very sweet.. but... cant cheer me up...exam always make a huge impact in me. Jux tht ppl cant tell... my parents cant even tell.. so suck thumb again. AaaRRgggHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i m back... i will survive!

Hehhe.. finally got my com back. Now damn fast le.. thnx dear! hehe got alot of things to update.. cant wait to update every single things here. We had our prelim practical yest and today. Hmm so far so good bah, got confidence... in the end results come out... hahhaa, lets see who will get the last laugh. Jux hope this time i wont decrease mr kuang salary.. if not he will come after me hahhaha. Paul came to fix my com today... haha, he bake marble cake.. so sweet. hehe, coz he dono how to bake cake, so force himself to learn. Hmm kinda feel really bad, coz eggs damn ex.. and he wasted one cake which is equal to 8 eggs wasted. ALl in all he used 16 eggs. I think if ppl hear this they will come after him haha. Anyway, the cake is HEAVEN!!! Its so nice lor, haha... joyce say so too =X Argh.. now i wanna dl msn messenger it refuse to dl for me... grr..Nxt week prelim le.. in conclusion, hell is near. But this time more confident bah coz at least this time more hard working... mux not fail A SINGLE SUBJECT! Kambate! Everyday, eat study eat study watch cartoon + study eat+study. No doubt after exam sure hit the 50+ mark. Haha.. today my mom cook alot for paul and joyce to eat.. if huixian here then more Re Nao! hahha... PAUL EAT MY FISH EGGS WITHOUT ME KNOWING!!! haha nvm.. got 2..then......MY MOM EAT IT WITHOUT ME KNWOING!!!! And she still smile at me -_-"" IN the end me and joyce eat till so full tht we ve to go take a walk at the gaden behind my house. Hmm u guys still rmb the place we went for lantern festival two yrs ago? The mark is still there.. so memorable.. tht time all of us still so innocent hahha.. yeah "innocent" Muahhaha. HOpe we can celebrate lantern festival this yr.. which is not possible.. then we celebrate nxt yr... together... hmmm.. deal? i dono... haha. Thts all for today guys.. muackz!!! miss u guys so much!

today.. hehhe take pics with yuansheng alvin and huixian. FOUR OF US!!!! do u know how hard it is to take pics with the four of us together? Anyway, alvin find it so hard to smile naturally.. maybe is cuz all that that happened.. ys stand beside me... sky falling down...haha..okie.. the logic is.. he cannot be standing beside alvin right? haha...or else later both also cannot smile le then picture not nice le.. lolx. ANyway.. jux so happy. Will love tht pics wahhaha. Anyway,i found tht necklace tht ys gave me for christmas.. thnx god..if not i go kill myself. Memories.. hehe. My first and only necklace... i rather broke then since then nobody gif me necklace le... pathetic right? hehe.. so happy. Oh yah, btw... yan zai, tht guy from 5-01 sang Ou de yang's xiu xiu xiu... so nice lor!!! wah..haha think all the gals will melt.. he fits the image of ou de yang anyway... muahhaha... wonder if the gal he had a crush on will regret not taking him as her bf..=P hehe... hmmm..prelims coming mux work hard wor... hehe. Tml go watch movie with him.. muahaha.. hmm will update tml... muackx all..ve a nice day! Tada!

*slap myself... why do i wan smth from him tht much.. why why?? its not as if i m those who always wan smth from bf.. i m not.. but why i m tht desperate this time.. argh stupid me.

I jux wan to tok to him... i miss him so much... i wan to tok to him at least once today...yet the day start off tht badly... and now? all i wan to do is go to my bed and cry....damn it. If only i know what ve i done wrong... think i shld go and slap myself for causing this whole thing...damn damn damn.

Today emath mock exam... haha 12 marks lost... close case=X WEnt to study with jonathan today. Haha, jonathan say Burger King there not bad... quiet.. in the end.. hahhaha don wana describe.. damn funny... a huge stage there and some kids doing modelling and stuff.. haha Jonathan was like..err forget it. So headed for KFC... hehe msg Paul and tokd him i m there eating chicken... haha he mux ve faint... since i love chicken so much =X Spend time doing some maths.. then he tok abt some stuff... sch and funny stuff.. so funny.... hahhahax... espeically the Seoul Garden thing... hahhax..had a good time there.. left at 6 anyway. Now very tired...*yawn. Will study with him again nxt week... guess schedule damn pack already. Now i keep coughing.. gues si laugh too much today. Help him abit of maths... scared i teach wrong...argh. Hmm.. now feel like sleeping but better stay awake till 10 hahhaha =Dtml down to do 10 yrs series... wont be toking on the phone anymore=)

Whoa.. a record of 2 days nv talk... not bad... didnt know still got ppl can angry so many days one... can become Guiness world record le. *speechless...

Yxian's dummy guide to Policy in dealing with unreasonable fellas

1) Ppl don like me.. then so be it. i cannot expect everyone in the world to like me right? then i am god le

2)If u tok to them and they refuse to tok to u.. so be it.... keep urself happy and stuff=)why? coz these ppl expect u to feel uncomfortable becoz they r ignoring u...note! if u r not at fault, keep urself happy... if u r at fault, of coz u mux feel uncomfortable, if not slap urself =X

3) Never let such things bother u.. becoz only ppl who r too free bother with such stuff

4) ppl don call me i don call ppl =X

5) Stay happy cheerful, little things let it be=) concentrate on study

6) Maybe i shld be catberg since jansen is Dogberg hahaha....=D Mux learn to be sarcastic sometimes too.. hehe

Mydearest frenx. When is the last time ur frenx ve been unhappy over a small ruler tht u 4get to return and refuse to tok to u? SOunds like a familiar primary sch scene? YEah thts right! Bingo my frenx... primary sch.. GOD SAKE PRIMARY SCHOOL!!!! How childish can tht be when ur secondary sch fren do tht too??? -_-""" Hmm advice me...my frenx.. shld i 1) Buy one whole boxes for her to shut her mouth? or 2) Let her face black black everyday for all she want?

Seriously.. i had a bad enough day in sch. Hx one.. nvm.. take its a i big mouth go and tell alan her marks. BUt seriously... if I WERE TO KNOW WILL I TELL THT IDIOTIC ALAN TEO KAY LIANG??? NO!!! OBVIOUSLY NOT!!! Jane one i really cannot tolerate. ONe correction tape she also wanna ji jiao.... and she still say i keep using.. HELLO!!!!! I ONLY USE A FEW TIMES THT DAY!!! NOT EVERYTIME!!!! I NV BORROW FROM HER B4 OK??? OK???Last time she use finish her correction tape then keep using mine.. sometime nv ask i also Let her use... now i only use once then she say until like i cannot afford like tht. Then the ruler... i don mean to what... i am sick.. does she expect me to go back to sch to return her tht precious ruler??? Jux becoz i 4get to return her tht time does tht mean i m not going to return this time?? Its not as if i m not going to return her.. since she like this.. tml i go buy her one whole set of ruler and corection tape to give her. Happy?? She wan to borrow things can.. i borrow her stuff cannot? HOw childish can tht be??? Hx one.. ok take it as i stupid go tell alan.. jane..i m speechless. Like today... she don even know what exactly happen... then she gif such a sarcatic comment.. i am speechless k? NOt the first time tht she dono what happen then she comment. Anyway joyce didnt exactly tell her what happen i think. Everytime something happen... to me especially.. she always comment.. everytime..its my fault..damn.Since she love to commment so much then go debate then...*frustrated.Pardon my words.. if its u.. will YOU be angry?? Btw.. anyone who knows places tht sell stationary in set.. plz let me know..i had enough.

Having fever for so many days already.. temperature jux wont go down. Maybe the virus jux love me so much tht it refuse to leave me? kewlx eh? IN a weather like this... 1st, am sweating away, 2nd am feeling so cold... argh.. can it get any worst than this? Hmm.. still trying very hard to study, concentrate.. hehe. Alvin bring my hw over tht day when i was having m.c. Haha, having a fren let me is so troublesome. hehe, coz he always ve to bring hw for me and stuff.... too bad... he didnt take m.c tht often so i cant return him tht favor =P. Oh yah, alvin, mux "thanks" him eh... for "advertising" for me... When i return sch tht day.. realise how many ppl already know i ve a bf.... thnx eh thnx.. wan me to "treat" u? Think the whole class know le. Tht day watch firework they all ask him, then alvin tell them.. even tell them his name yada yada.... so first thing first... xinya ask me abt it during p.e lesson. Then phy lesson...li jun ask....argh!!!!!!!!! Was telling joyce the other day,tht i wonder what ppl think of me now...desperate??? or what ve they been saying behind my back? Nvm... shall not be bothered abt what other ppl think abt me...... coz the more u r trying to make it right.. the more ppl thinks more complicatedly... so why bother?

Today, he is kinda not himself... coz he jux lost one of his fren. Its scary.. i mean the way he tok... kinda cold, kinda like a stranger to me...but i understand. Some how losing a fren.. this kinda feeling takes time to recover. But it kinda scares me. I remember what alvin say.. he paint a picture of a scene..if i die... ppl will be at my funeral... everyone will be upset yada yada... true... JOyce dreamt tht i died tht time... tht scares her... she say she cry in her dreams... think its time to show my frenx how much i appreciate them...show ppl ard how much i appreciate them=)

Time to spend more time with my frenx.... joyce, hx they all. They kinda "complain" tht i ve been spending too much time with paul hahaha alright alright.. sorry kinda pang sei u guys. They say tht when u ve a boyfriend... u will ve lesser frenx.. true true.. hehex.. but i will somehow balance my time wif u guys k? Mux also squeeze time out for my primary sch frenx. Blame on my bad luck.. whenever they ve outing either i am booked or i m sick... damn. After o'levels, mux go out with HCL.. hehe go take photo together=) Rmb the last time we take pics at cineleisure?so much fun keke... after Os.. hehe cant wait.. cant wait to spend more time with HCL, Primary sch frenx and him. =D

NEws News!!!
I got a B3 for chinese.. okie.. i know its no big deal to some ppl coz its not A1 or A2... but to me it is a big deal! i ve expected to get B4 or below.. and my oral i expect a pass... and i actually got a merit! Whoa! so happy! kekeke... almost fly home 2day. YEAH YEah!!!!!!!!!!! *slap myself*

Fever wont go down... instead it went up... damn. Headache....argh! Now eyes watery watery now...sniff... sniff. Hehe... now i mux aim for L1R5 below 20...if not i can go knock my head against the wall. Aim for this yr olevel

Eng: B3
COmbine humanities: A2
Physic:B4
Chemistry: B4
Math:A2

Total + chinese: 18

This mux be my ideal score..argh!!!!!!!! Better do well for my maths and others.... if not i will not be able to achieve target

Worst scenario

Eng:B4
COmbine humans: B3
Physic:B4
Chem: C5
Maths : B3

Total + chinese: 22

Wah 22 its a hell lot of marks.. cant cant.. mux pray hard... pray!!!!!!!!!!

Tml oral exam..think i shld be praying for my eng oral to go well... with my condition now(stuck nose, soar throat) It will be a miracle if i can pronounce all my wordsa clearly tml.

Hee.. yesterday went to watch fireworks with paul, alvin, huixian and her parents. Actual plan is paul, alvin,hx, melissa, xueli and yuansheng. But after tht too much ppl... then in a mess so nv meet up. Went earlier to cityhall with him... go walk walk at esplanade and marina prominade there. Whoa... 5566 fans, Toro fans.. all stand by there for their performance already. After tht, walk all the way to Raffles place.... to Lao Pak Sat there see got what stuff to eat... then went to raffles place mrt to meet alvin, hx and her parents. Haha, thnx goodness nv meet ys. B4 tht was discussing with him how to handle 3 guys at the same time. Hx lor.. say she will be late.. wan me to go wait for alvin and ys... thnx eh. Want me to go meet 2 guys who refuse to tok to each other and one of them i don even tok to. Then i msg her" huh? then i m stuck with my bf, my ex and my best friend?" guess what is her reply, "yah, goodluck" i was half crying and laughing to myself -_-" Haaha.. he say he can tok to ys and i tok to alvin.. thts a real bad idea... but thts the best we can come up with. Thnx goodness... ys didnt come to meet us. Alvin still got the cheek to laugh at me when he arrive. So... yah.. hx and alvin ve a great time teasing me... what voltage and resistance.. bulb to bright may explode...nvm. Ate western food and satay. Took photo with alvin's cam.. had lotsa fun. Then we go watch fireworks. One word: Beautiful. The firework will be even more beautiful if we r not being block by a building... but overall...GREAT!!! After tht.. road a huge mess. Hx parents lead the way out... then we went separate ways. He send me to esplanade there to find my parents... halfway saw huiping they all.. wanna say a proper hi then he kept walking so i jux say bye and left... finally found my parents... then i ask him to go first and i go meet them. Haha.. my mom say shldnt ask him to go first.. she wanna see him. Argh... shld ve ask him to stay.... hehe... nvm. HAd a great day yest. Will rmb it forever. Thnx frenx.. for the company... thnx u...for ur time. =D

Whoa... cant help it but wanna update... jansen look very funny in his clown costume and face in his friendster. He don even look like himself. Cant recognise his james lye eyes. Jeex... face so white and smooth hahaha but he llooks cute =D

Had a wonderful time yest... start off well ends off well... perfect! Sch celebrating national day.. speech day broing as usual. Yest is also melissa's bdae. Haha... went to sch earlier to wait for the cake to come and prepare everything. Everyone is here..... except hx... we were all bouncing up and down wondering where she is. She is the "main lead" coz she is carrying the cake... yes! the CAKE! But anyway she finally came and we prepare and stuff and signal to xueli ask melissa to come in.. hehe... we all hide ourself and spray ribbons on her. Whoa... after cutting and giving out the cake.. left the cake lighters and stuff there and went for assembly.... speech day boring as usual.... wanna msg yet teachers kept walking abt. After the prize giving.. head straight off to class... Guess what?!?!?! The cake is gone!!! Yeah its gone!And 401 class room is a mess. can u believe it? There is such "hungry ghost" in sch and will even wan to still the cake??? Even my lighter is gone... goodness... but anyway... have to clean up the mess tht whorever made. went to help out at mr chan outlet... there is this entrepreneur bazzar in our sch for charity. Hehe.. me and hx help to draw hena painting in their hand for 1 bucks. Help a bunch of 502 gals draw on thieir hands. haha, once i sit down got alot of ppl queing le.. me not experience yet..but ve to help her draw.. haha hand shaking...so i tell her i don guarantee..if not nice don blame me. haha but after drawing a few.. i find tht i am getting better at it.. hehe.. draw nicer le. So plz with my self. But haha.. i draw my own one very ugly... so argh! haha... but becoz of helping out...i am late for meeting him at bukit batok... argh.. made him wait so long.. how cld i.. but haha i ve to finish off the hand painting for the girl before leaving... if not how can i leave the picture halfway done? hehe... movie at woodland is always great! i mean haha.. some ppl know what i mean. Only funny thing is.. i cld even cut out a piece of chicken meat when i eat western food.. embarasssing right? so i definitely cldnt fit to be a serial killer. Chicken also cannot cut how to kill ppl? haha... anyway.. almost saw off the whole plate... haha mux thnx god tht i didnt cut till the chicken fly to his face.. i will be laughing my head of and feeling sorry at the same time. hahahaha... joyce was laughing when i told her this... this morning. I still rmb the last time i eat western food with her.. haha i use the folk, 'stab' on the meat, leave it up and bite it.. does it reminds u of stone age? hahaha i still rmb she say tht i better don eat western food with him.. if not i will scare him off if i eat like this... true true. Hahaha.... was laughing even harder to myself.. when he said tht his friend once did tht.. and he kinda freak out? lolx..funny right? hmm movie is nice.. the village. But not exactly tht scary. So much so for the eerie part in advertisment... showing the movie preview... not scary at all. hmm.. some parts only.. thts all i can say. Overall.. wonderful time!=) I mux thnx hx... she can make it for firework tml!!! so happy tht i grab her hard. If i can i will definitely hug and kiss her!!!!!!!!(but i m not a lesbian u see) Wah so happy!!! nv love hx so much before hehehe.

ARGH!!! Banana rama did not rise today! Argh!! But haha.. i m stil happy.. i scored the goal for today. YEah! so happy abt tht. Was running around the court today trying to snatch the ball. Funny thing is 18 ppl going after a small little ball size of an orange with a "rod" hahha.... like witch on broom stick haha. Today we draw with chilli padi.. nvm.. we will rise again nxt week. wahhaha!!

Got scared by jansen yest.. scared he go do silly stuff.. calll his phone untill it nearly rot he still didnt pick.. thnx goodness he didnt do silly stuff but smth did happen to him. And i still dare to laugh *slap myself. Haha.. its serious but i cant help laughing.. anyway.. i was trying not to laugh yest. hehe.

so happy.. tml going out.. muahahahaha!!!!

haix..joyce is lucky yet she didnt know it. She has a god bro tht loves her, dote on her so much, care for her so much, yet she is always trying to make herself cry and she don even know why too. THis morning she told me she is worried abt jansen and stuff and how awful she felt. I felt even more awful than she is. Jansen asked her not to tell me whats going on and stuff... and now... even when he go operation, i didnt hear the news from he himself.. i hear it from joyce. I know nth at all. I am afraid.. tht he may go blind...very very very afriad.. yet tht day when joyce told me abt it.. i m very tempted to msg him and ask him if he is alright but yet.... yet i cldnt. I wanna know if he is alright.. yet i cldnt. TOday, went to sch, very scared... asked joyce to call him.. called twice nv pick. IN the end ask her leave voice msg... she leave abit i leave abit. Cant even eat during recess, but hx ask me to eat...so eat lor... at least can eat.I was hoping tht at least he did msg me and tell me tht he is alright after the operation... but he didnt. Now i begin to wonder whether he really think of me the way i think of him as a fren. I mean i don understand why he didnt let me know abt it.Nvm abt tht... i m really glad tht he is alright now... really really glad!

I was thinking... jansen only i am tht worried.. when come to his turn.. then what will i become?? i m scared for him as well....pray pray pray. Think when its his turn then i wont be able to eat and slp already.

I dono why i m like this, maybe i ve nv been thru such situation b4.ive nv been so afraid b4.... Nv in my whole life. Whenever i ve smth... God always take it away from me when i m at my happiest. I don wan this to happen again. Taking a person away from this world is different from breaking the person up... at least when someone breaks up... they r still able to see each other at times...at least u will know the person is ard... taking a person away is diff.. so much diff. I mean i jux don wan anything to happen to him thts all. I really dono what will happen if there comes a day like this. I even asked joyce to pray for him yesterday when she go to church. Now u know how scared i was. I know i shld be stronger than he is coz he needs me ard to support him. In the end, i didnt do much. I got more upset than he is. Jux don like anything happen.. jux hope everything will be alright. I really hope it will come out positive. Really. Now all i can do now is pray tht i wil be able to see the firework with him on his bdae on national day. Nth will happen.. right? Everythign will be alright.....please.

had a wonderful time yest.. thnx for eveything=) you make it so perfect. Sorry tht i ve to make u wait for so long yest... almost 3 hrs? so sorry abt tht..

Thnx eh jansen.. u go and put tht whole phrase in ur blog.... argh... i cld i ve killed u but nvm haha. Yest.. went off with them after walk walk with him. Guess hx had a great time without me hahhaa.... jansen alon can entertain them le... haha. They damn mean.. cant stop laughing at me. They were spying on me when i was eating with him and they were laughing at my expression...and copying me.. argh!!! no wonder i feel tht i am being watched all the time. Haha he feel it too. Think my eyes mux ve got stamps on it.. i actually cant see them haha. On the way... we were laughing and toking.. and i punch jansen on his arm when he laughed at me again. GRrrr.... how cld u guys eh? Kinda regret asking you to leave first.. shld ve ask you to come with me...haha..okie okie.

The choir thing.. almost fell alsp.. think its the atmospher.. the lighting and stuff.. its jux so nice to slp. Was msging the whole time.. reading letters... smilling to myself.. thnx goodness i m at the last row.. if not ppl mux ve tot i am crazy haha. i was smillling to myself even when i was on the train.kinda eerie when i go home..... the road is dark.. thnx god my dad wait for me downstairs. haha the eeyore sleep beside me yest.. till nxt morning *wink

Yest start off to be a beautiful day.. end off...such a sad ending. i shall not emphasis on it. anyway... hope everything will be fine... really really hope so.... =(
 
Have gastric today... didnt feel well... so my mom ask me not to go to sch. She is not feeling well, then she say she wanna acc me to polyclinic coz she scared i half way faint.. haha.. so yah went ther for the sake of one M.C. Don feel good this whole day... i am sick, worried blah blah... whatever... need to study for test on fri. Geo and ss test.. argh!
 
NO mood to type my entry.. shall end here...

Heard smth really bad yest... joyce told me tht jan hurt his head.. then need to go operation haha joyce make it sound as though he is going to die... so after sch immediately call him to see if he is ok... but he nv pick... went home send him a msg.. he say he is alright.. thnx goodness. Call him @ night... found out tht he may go blind... coz smth is wrong with his eyes then plus the head injury make it even worst. One more injury and he will be blind. Now there isnt any cure for this right now.. thts what he said.. its pretty sad. Even though he sound cheerful.. trying to act as if nth happen.. but i can feel tht he is really raelly sad. Jux tht he don wanna me and joyce to worry. Joyce and i almost feel like crying yest... haix... life is full of unfair stuff... =(
 
Sms seems to be overused.... think 3 days curfew also not enough.. argh but i cant take it anymore!!!!
 
argh! so hungry right now. Hate it when i ve gastric.. sometimes hungry sometimes full sometimes wanna puke..  =X . Whoa.. surprise surprise.. heston frm miss tan church. Coz he also ask me to go watch tht play call Eternity.. but guess am not going. Miss tan from tht church too.. hmm victory family centre i think. Whoa.. this world is sooooo small. Jux tht dono she go sembawang or cck one.
 
today physic test.. quite easy.. shld be alright. HAha funny thing is today got cme common test. lolx.. so hard to choose which one is the right ans. haha if fail then not fit to be singaporean le. Alvin's camera got confiscated today..lolx.. xinru make mrs lim angry twice today.. guess she so ji chou.. haha. WAh... nxt time cannot anyhow tell ppl i got blog.. haha expecially xinru..opps! haha.. coz he will publicise to whole class -_-"" arghh~ in the end the whole world noe my stuff.. arghZ!!! nvm haha.. i got nth to hide though =X
 

i jux read jansen's entry... and i found this part, 'Xian...I know ure heart is restless and needs a place to stay...but pls, dun for a moment of folly and break ur heart so irreparable...dun pick the rite guy but at the wrong time...wat the heck...u wont be reading this anyway.' i am touched tht he is still concern abt me... but haha, he didnt come to my new blog so don think he will read this anyway. If he did visit, he will probably leave a tag at the tag board. I know what he mean.. but i don understand some part of it though... haha nvm i will ask him myself.
 
YEst, was studyting in library with joyce.. for a while coz joyce is not feeling well. Went to popular after tht.. and its my turn to be dizzy and stuff...haix. Called jansen to pick her up coz i am worried for her coz she ve to go ther herself and no one will be there the acc her. Don wan her to faint somewhere. Met paul there.. haha umm went to delifrance. I was there laughing to myself coz i was sitting at the exact seat and place where the last time i was there with alvin and her mom.. argh.. so embarass tht time. nvm.. he was eatin.. and i was playing with my phone and stuff.. i was shaking in my seat.. mind u. My hand is shaking when i was playing with my phone.. how embarassing can tht be? haha if i am not careful, i may shake up the whole table. We talk and stuff... haha.. its kinda nice. WEnt home after tht. TOld him not to send me coz i wan sometime to think to myself. I was thinking the whole day, even at nite coz i cant slp...having gastric. Hahax.. guess..
 
Anyway... was thinking of my wish list at night too.. haha so this is it.. some of them are pretty impossible.
 
My wish list

1. stop dropping hair
2. grow taller
3. i wan a deuter bag
4. i wanna learn acappella
5. i don wanna be fat when i reach 21 hahaha
6. i wan baby blues comics
7. i wan a hug from all my frenx, close frenx, long time frenx, close ones..(as if they wanna hug me)
8. i wanna go back to lim chu lang camp to lie there and see stars
9. I wanna SEE this yrs firework!!!
10. i wannna......................

I am sorry i let this affects you. It wasnt your fault tht  things turn out this way. Trust me.
 
Feeling alittle better today. Yeah no doubt i was still alittle angry in e morning and i ve got my tots straighten, so i am feeling alright now(i guess so). Haha, i am not gonna let such things bother me, neither do i think tht i shld bother such things too. Its not doing me any good so haha, happy or not, i still ve to spend my day right? so i did rather spend my day feeling happy than angry over stuff like tht=D. If he choose to believe tht i will do smth like this, then let things be then.From 2day onwards, i am not going to bother it anymore. =)
 
Today, jane seems to be angry when she came up for recess. WHen i tok to her, she kinda ignore me...so i guess its becoz joyce came to sit with me and hx during recess. Like i say , its a guess so i dono whether its right or wrong cox i cannot think of any other reason tht involves me. But joyce told me tht she told jane tht she come and sit with us first and ask her to join us... in the end she nv come. Maybe she didnt heard it? I dono... i jux noe she is toking to everyone except me and yah... think she is not very happy. =X

OKie.. this is my 3rd entry today...i am darn angry.Spoil my beautiful day. FIne, i ve plan to call jansen this saturday to say sorry to him or whatever.i can even gif him my tigger if tht makes him happy. I don blame him for being angry for my comment in my blurty.... now, i don think there is a need to.  So he thinks tht i am seriously asking joyce to go mirc find another guy??? ha... what a joke. Why don he ask himself what he had said yest? JOyce was so darn upset this morning and i was trying to make her laugh... if i don say smth like this to make her laugh... what can i say? Its obviously meant to be a joke. IF its becoz of the diary entry u don wanna tok to me, i understand. But becoz of this thing tht u r not going to tok to me, fine! so be it. I can live without toking to u. I mean this time u guys cant blame me for being mad right? right? I seriously dono why joyce have to say tht either. Pardon me ppl... i am angry...

Jux saw paul's entry.. its really sweet... hope i wont get any diabetes soon. Haha.. yeah u really make my day =D
 
I am really, really speechless abt jansen. This time, i did get the proper information b4 i type this entry... not jumping to conclusion. I mean, joyce was so terribly upset today. Who wont? She was crying on the phone jux now. Now, i understand how joyce feel when i cry on the phone the other time over him. jOyce asked him if he really liked her... his ans is... dono. What is dono? Yes means yes, no means no. Is there a word dono in love?? If he is unsure of his love towards her... then he shldnt have said tht he love her in the first place? JOyce was so happy on the night he told her tht and she cldnt slp. The nxt day, she is so cheerful. And then? yest... nvm.. I jux hope tht he really mean what he said by "after olevel then say" and i hope he mean tht after olevel means concentrate on Olevel now and continue in future co he don wan her to be affected by it and flunk her olevels. But i know what joyce want, she wan it now, not future. Its definitely better to have someone to support u thru ur olevels and stuff, someone by ur side and all. haix.. i dono.. hope joyce will know which path to choose and choose the right one. coz right now... i can  see the right one for her already... but can she see it?

i am very very happy yesterday, today... haha.. i dono since when... but i am very very happy. =) Was it because of you?  hmm... i am so happy tht even when joyce told me she stead with jansen i am still very happy. THink i ve some loose wire somewhere. ONly after i put down the phone then i began to worry for her. Coz my lefteye start twitching and i can sense something bad is going to happen. Not tht i don trust jansen, i mean he is nice.. but the way joyce tell me everything seems too familiar to be true. ANyway, today when to class to check on her. ONcei step into the classroom i know smth is wrong. WHen i ask her if she is feeling ok... she seems to be in the verge of tears.. but... yah, she is unable to cry. She told me waht happen.. and i was like...what the hell?!?! nvm.. back to the topic... haix, god will bless her....definitely.
 
I am stilll very happy when i got home... hehehe. Nothing can upset me for the time being. Hope it will stay this way. Finally found my motivation to study and do my work. Hope to help joyce find her motivation too... *smilex!

Argh! i failed my social study.. so sad!!!! I spend so much time studying and this is how it turn out.. argh! haha, nvm. was arguing yest with paul tht pink is not a gay colour for guys... at least not pmk shirt.. haha okie, depends, sometimes it jux don fit. Hmmx... haha feeling kinda hardworking today though.. haha dono why. Later need to go and do my homeweork. Will be busy this few sdays... maybe no time for phone calls and stuff... haix. Maybe i will call jansen on sat? coz now i really ve no time.. further more he told joyce yst tht "we r not on toking terms" so u can guess... hmm, think i going to study le. Mux work really really hard. btw, i cant wait for 30 july. =) there is another reason for tht actually =D *smilex.

hahax.. had a tiring day yest night. Studying for chemistry and all..  haha, trying to remember all those theroy and all. HAha.. woke up, eyes swollen up like someone had jux punch me on my face..okie i am exagerating. Receive a msg from paul wishing me good luck... haha thnx.. made my day =D
 
Today assembly, teachers went to take photo, so we were sitting in the hall in our class. HAha, i seriously pei fu xinru. He really know all the gossip of our class mates u know. Why? haha, by reading blogs, diary entries etc.... i am one of them. Haha, then he wil read and come and laugh at me...fine! fine! hahahhax. We sit there in the all with alvin they all... then we tok abt chemistry stuff.. then other stuff. Haha, alvin try to take hx photo for him..lolx. Xinru, leave a msg at my tag board so tht i know u r here to dig for my gossip k? haha.
 
Whoa, our classmates were armed with "accesories" for photo taking... guess what? haha, gel, clay, whatever stuff for hair styling.. haha u name it the yhad it. Then alvin even brough sun glasses.. whoa! Impressive right? haha then they were planning what pose to strike for the fun-shot. haha so fun. After sch, went to get ice-cream with joyce, hx and alvin. Lol.. we were eating icecream and sitting on the see saw in those indoor play ground. WAH~ unfair!! they bully me.! okie.. i sound like a kid. haha... u know what. hx and joyce take one side of the see-saw and madfe me sit at the other side. Given their comibine weight and mine weight.. what do u think happen? And given their "super-power-butt-strength" it send me "flying" on the sit... butt pain ya know... haha but i took my "revenge" they each got to experience the butt flying thing haha. in the end, we got so use to it tht when we sat on the chair.. we almost automatically jump on the chair.. haha so funny.
 
Yeah! 30 july, we r going to victoria theatre to watch some performance.. coo right? so happy, its at 8.00 pm =D hehehhe... =P

First entry!

hmmm..thnx paul. For ur time in setting up this blog thing for me even though ya sick and drowsy and falling aslp on ur com... really really appreciate this. =) Its beautiful! Thnx a million!I ve learn to appreciate everything, everyone around me ever since last week...haix.
 
OKie, was feeling extremly guilty this whole day for what i ve written abt him on my blurty. Toking to joyce during recess make it worst. I feel like crying in english class after tht.Receive an sms from jansen in the morning and was darn sleepy with my eyes hardly able to open... see the msg, anyhow press and send over. After tht then did i realise what i was doing. I almost cried when he said he buy the pooh,eeyore and piglet to acc my tigger. Its obvious tht he is upset and angry with i ve wrote. TO be honest, tht is the nastiest thing i ve ever wrote in my whole lifetime. Now, wanna regret also no use le. The worst thing is joyce say he went to buy tht soft toy and late for his church. I really didnt expect him to go get tht stuff. His pay is so little and the 3 little soft toy? Mux ve cost a bomb. Nvm... think he now rather throw into rubbish bin than gif me. I don deserve it anyway.. guess he shld gave them to the orphans in the orphanage tht he visted. They deserve them more than i do. Now tht i see the tigger... i donno wat to do. OKie.. i tot i did type a one milion sorry an send an email across or call him to say sorry. But i don think there is a need... coz joyce say he wont wan tok to me, sms whatever... so i call he also wont pick up.... But the worst thing is he didnt know who i misinterpret the whole thing lor. Thw worst thing in life is to wrong someone. Now i say sorry also no use.. might as well go and die....
 
*Btw.. alvin jux said tht he bought the winnie the pooh stuff for 20++ for one.. now i can really go and die...