WHY? Why? why?

Why mux things turn out this way? Life sux totally. Now we ve to make a decision... to take a risk, or to wait for things to chill before carry on. Either way, it will not be an easy one. We r waiting for the verdict tonight. He is not even hoome yet, tonight he will know the verdict... whatever the verdict is... its already arrange by god long ago... we cant change anything. We shall see how it goes. But i seriously think its not fair, to both of us. He tot so too... but too bad.. its the house rulex. ARGH!! And i got joyce into trouble today... coz she ve to acc me and i cry so hard in the park tht she dono what to do... then her father scold her when she got home.. i really got her into trouble.. i m feeling so guilty right now. PLx.. pray for me tht everything will be alright.. i m feling so crushed right now.. damn.