I PASS my science for godsake!!!!!And its physics tht i pass!!! haha If renand is here... i will hug him straight!!!! MUST really thnx him!!!! HUGGIES!!!! Thnx Renand for ur patience in teaching me Physics despite my blood vomiting questions... haha really A BIG THANK YOU!!!!

haha went Orchard with my mum today... vey funnny...

First take 174.. take till wanna puke.. *shake head

Then went Isetan, walk ard, buy sushi.. then head of to CK Tang to buy the Meyer top cap

Headed off to cineleisure... treat my mum PAsta Mania.. in the end seems to be the greatest regret.... why?

ULTRA SALTY FOR GOD SAKE!!!! So YUcky can? the Chicken bolognise taste so awful! luckily i ordered the Al Funghi...... BUT!

my mum exchange with me -.-" -.-" -.-"

We were so bloated lor.. my mum finish it anyway... but i jux cant force myself to eat tht chicken bolognise... to summarise... we were near to vomitting haha so full... mum say wanna drink tea ye t dono got where find.. in the end walk all the way to Plaza singapura....guess what

HAha! we end up eating 4 oranges each to make ourselve feel better =X more umm... digested?

Oh btw... ate Fish curry tonite.. haha think i really getting fat... uh-oh i m....I CANT WEAR MY SCHOOL SKIRT!

ITS not the first time he make me wait sitting infront of the com waiting like and idiot.... longest record.... almost 2hrs(believe i t or not)....

AND! its not the first time tht i VE to call personally to ask what happen....

AND now i blow my top, he call to apologise BUT he say i m wasting his phone bil by keeping quiet, he don expect me to smile when i m angry right?(shld i even say tht i m so upset at his attitude when he tok to me tht i cry?)....he don sound sincere when he apologise...

ANd he say i m pissing him off instead...hello?

FINE! I NV SHOUT or BLOW MY TOP into the phone with him before ok! THT should show how piss i was!

And well.. he say he will call me back.... but he didnt anyway....so i shld jux ket it be i guess

hmm.. finally get to meet my primary sch frenx tml *smilex hmm haven meet them since like... umm when?

*wonder if i will feel left out.. hmmx

today work quite ok ba...sian.....

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hmm today's work kinda busy... like JIng Qi say... dono why when i start printing ppl keep coming... haha maybe i m too attractive *roll eyes*

i kinda like to work with Jing Qi... coz of her sense of responsibility ba.... working with her is like fun and not much of a problem =D hahax.. no wonder joan like her so much...

haix.. joyce today get scolded again... hope she don take it too hard...

WAh!!! monday release result!!! 2 pm!!!!! Aargh... wonder how will my monday be like...

Oh yah... joan say if today joyce blur blur monday take result she don come.... hope today joyce do well in her job ba... then monday she can work with me =D JOyce!!! *shake shake shake* wake up!!!! later become sotong how?

on second tot.. maybe monday i m the one who will be blur.. come to result i more extreme hahax..

PRAY!!!! tht i will be able to enter Nursing course.. if i m able to study in poly.. i promise i will slog and work hard!!!!!!!!!!!! PROMISE!!!!!! Most imptly, my eng math and science mux pass.. the others.... hmm not impt...

heex... JIng Qi today so sweet... bought Bread Talk moose cake for me the heart shape one =) She know i like to eat tht cake lor... haha then she bought it.. thnx alot! shall treat her smth else some other time..heex so touch tht she still rmb =D

sian 2 more days to release of results... i wonder if i will flood the sch.. sigh...

haha, menghow is still the same as before... alright, maybe....not as sissy? hahax!

i very very very bored ah!!!!HELP!!!

Work same as usual.. sometimes i m glad i ve such a great boss.. hahax... even though its only 4 bucks an hr... but i did rather get little pay and ve a good boss.. thts whats tht matter =D

Rather pressurise today(or rather since dono when)... now i finally understand how joyce feel when she is in other ppl shoe.. infacts too much shoes.. hmm hope i wont ve hong kong leg....

Heard tht result fri release.... pressurising.... but anyway... i intend to "re-structure" my room after i know wht course i m studying in

M on mirc... this stupid guy kept asking me all sorts of questions... m -s-p-e-e-c-h-l-e-s-s-!!

Tok to paul jux now... he don sound quite happy... hope its the weather

SIanx... sian.. sian

uh-oh.. jux rmb jon today got check up... better drop in msg to see hows he's doing

Joyce told me abt the MOE letter stuff... set me thinking the whole nite... thnx to the rumour...

Went to Bugis with my mum today... bought clothes...5 to be exact.... 2 giordano(this is the 1st time i find their t-shirt nice for god sake) 1 levis t-shirt, 1 von-dutch and 1 Fido Dido tee.... all in all cost quite alot.. mum chip in quite abit =D Was in a terrible mood today... well the Olevel thingy is affecting me...damn. Back to the bugis thing.. was crossing the road to Parco when i saw heston, yeah, kinda nice feeling coz its been some time since i met him? hmm.. yeah quite long i guess.. he jux touched down from Aussie? or US? ummm cant rmb... kinda blur today but anyway he is flying off tonight again to LA... hmm hope he has a smooth flight yea? =D was very tempted to ask him if he is free for coffee this few days... but yeah keep my mouth shut cox think he is too busy for tht... so hmmm...(oh yah jux to add-on, i like his eng accent=X)

I miss coffee club cheese cake... mmmmm... the tot of tht small piece of yellow thingy melting in my mouth is enough for me to salivate half a day =X hahax.. hmm shld go there again some other day=)

Feel like going to UK fun fair... in a lousy mood... hmm shld go there to take some rides and scream!!!!(or shld i say shatter glasses?) Aargh!!!! I need some recreational activity!!!!! Bowling anyone? K-box? Oh yah toking abt K-box... my cousin raise a pt tht i tot is kinda true... singing in K-Box makes u feel like ya singing in the cubicle... good pt! Shld try party world nxt time.

Let me announce... i m in love with Zhang Zi Chen aka Zcheng =X haha...ve been listening to his songs for 3 consecutive weeks and i m totally falling for him haha. Hmm like Fish Leong, when he sings a song, u can feel the story and the feelings in it...cool ritex?My ideal guy man! Hmm rite now... seems tht i m more into chinese songs... english songs however doesnt do much effect to me haha... hmm maybe a few of the bands only... mostly boy bands kinda stuff... now rock songs seems to be the in thing too.. hmmx...

Still pondering over the decision... sigh... so much factors and consequences to consider...sometimes i wish when i wake up the nxt day i realise tht its all a dream.. hmmx.

Freaky freaky day... sigh

This few days very fan.... especially yest... think depression coming back.. coz morning i wake up cant eat lor... sigh..cant breathe also... in the end didnt eat much.... then went to work on taxi feeling nauseating... reach the shop wanna puke lor.... yest work tillv ery fan and annoyed.. so much things to do.. is like my soul not there one lor.. kept drifting away... so much things to worry abt... kept thinking abt the prob. Oh yah.... almost dump joan radio yest lor... mux be playing a fool with me... whole day keep playing ZHANG DONG LIANG song can... like nth to play like tht... know i bad mood still play so many of his songs to affect me.... i listen and work till wan to cry lor... stupid radio...further more the whole day all sad song can?!?!?! i was like wtf lor.... i wan to cry can but i held back lor... few song later another Zhang Dong liang song.. i was like not funny lor.... then joan tht day also quite moody... coz she alot of things to do..f ace black balck.. then i also very fan.... face black black.. sitation damn intense lor....sian... sigh...

Now tht all my frenx from the shop know my prob... even joan also noe.. they empathise my situation and help me think of a best solution lor... i was wondering lor... even my frenx there who don know me for long KNOWS n UNDERSTAND my situation lor... why no matter how i put it he also don understand lor... sigh... he don seems to know tht the true reason why i m so vex over this problem lor.... maybe i m more concern abt the consequences after the whole episode... more concern over what will happen to our friendship lor... i value our friendship alot....ALOT !! He will nv understand how much i value this friendship, and he will nv understand... i ve my reason to everything.. i really miss those days tht we can tok abt anything under the sun... the tone is different... i miss the old way.... not the whole new way of toking to me... i feel very strange... like i m toking to this whole new person... i really miss the old days... alot... Joyce told me tht yest paul tot of stepping out and let me go with him coz of so many problems... i know he wans me to be happy... but i don like such "noble act"... to me.... its not noble at all.... sigh....

Note for the day: try not to crash joan radio.......

IF I KNOW WHO MEDDLE ARD WITH MY FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT THT PERSON IS GOING TO GET IT FROM ME!!!!!!

Heex yest valentine day was great =) Yeah..thnx dear... for making everything perfect(even though little stuff got screwed up here and there)=D

Yest work till 4.... before tht help joan bank in money..wah! 600 bucks leh!!! I take le also scared, in the end joan acc me to the bank lor.. while waiting joyce called to tell me tht jon reach le.... but too bad i at the bank..then when i went back... jon is waiting outside for me holding the thre ferero flowers... haha they were beatiful =D thnx a lot!!!

Went raffles place wait for him... then went to clark quay coffe bean.. order smth to drink and i gave him my first surprise... cake from Bread talk... its two small cake.. very beautiful lor.. haha and yep delicious.... luckily it taste good.. if not i will scream... hahax. Go to ang mo kio.. coz he need to see doc.. then rush down to Bishan park. Taxi stop at the wrong place so we ended up "strolling" there... haha. Hmm... not bad.. the place is a restaurant.... its rather romanttic place to be exact... honestly.. what he is paying for the meal is actually paying for the ambience and atmosphere there... hahax... yeah... reach ard 7.30... waited half an hr for our first dish to be served... another 15 - half an hr for 2nd and 3rd dish... we were very very impatient... paul was pretty apologetic... but its ok lah not his fault...he was afraid tht i might get scolded or smth... finally finish our dinner at 9.15... skip the last dish.. which is jux coffee lor.. the waitress there were pretty slow poke.. or rather the cook... we r not the only one who were impatient... haha paul was like asking me to give the restaurant another chance.. haha alright.. i will =) the desserts were great i admit =) After everything.. took a taxi home... cost me $10.50. Asked him to open my present on the way back.. haha... yeah.. luckily he like tht present.. if not i dono whether to laugh or to cry lor.. haha... yeah so reached home ard 9.40 pm mum was pretty surprise coz i told her i will be late... and yep... she didnt scold me =D

whoa am the super hero today.. from morning 10 am work till 8.30pm but not bad lah... 40 bucks.. today work till very pissed, irritated and angry.. alot of things to rush today.. some customer ve to slowly, tok nicely to them one lor... slowwly patiently explain one lor when they insist on doing their way.... i wanted very much to take a broom and chase them off lor.. wtf. Got on women..WAH! SHE MAKE ME SUPER ANGRY CAN!!! She told me she wan 2 pages into one A4 size paper single side.... then i print 3/4 of the book le and i saw her paper wrote each page on 1 A4 size paper.. so i asked tian hui to ask for me.. IN THE END SHE TOLD ME SHE WAN ONE PAGE IN ONE A4 LOR!!! ENLARGEMENT SOMEMORE!!! i was like volcano errupt can! I was like scolding and whatever lor... tian hui was like... "umm tell u wat i help u print lor" so i let her print.. i feel like burning her books up lor... in the end joyce call back the person to tell her tht enlargement need money.. then she was like complaining on the phone say why enlargement need money other place no need.. i was like other place no need then go other place lah!!! but i nv say to her lah.. in the end Joan also cannot stand her.. then she go and tok to her lor.... then in the end the person agree to ve it in 2 pages to 1... haha and joan was like telling me...."relaxx....." haha... she know i from morning till now rush here and there tillv ery irritated liao.. she still laugh at me.. i was like angry till wan to cry lor.. what the hell.. but nv cry lah... Tian Hui tot i cry haha... yeah.. whole day very busy... now finally can sit down le.. yan.. damn tired... think i end here bah.. ciaox!!!

Jie Shou

Fish Leong (Liang Jing Ru)

fang fu shang yi fen zhong
ni hai pei zai wo zuo you
hai yi wei wo men hui kai hua jie guo
wo hai ji de mei gui se tian kong
que mo hu le wo men de lian kong
hn guo de ge dao di you shen me nei rong

* fang fu yi jing zi you
xia yi ke wo bian cheng feng
chui guo ni de ling kong
cha dian shi kong
hui yi de ye li nao de hen xiong
wo xiang wo ke yi ming bai ni suo you de tong
xiang rang ni zhi dao wo dong
que dan xin yan bu you zhong

# wo men dou jie shou
yi ding shi bi ci bu gao cheng shou
zai ai qing yi fen bu liao qing zhong
cheng shi de guo le tou
bu neng tui houy ye wu fa xiang qian zou
ai shi yi ge zi si de nian tou
ba ji mo xiao chu de li you
sheng xia de na xie gan dong
neng ji de duo jiu

My tots...

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hmm..........-.-?

Change a new skin.. haven change most part of the blog yet... still quit eempty.. and yeah...... heard tht its quite ugly?hmmx...

Wah... alot to blog..haha one thing tht i mux blog right here...joyce is kinda hyper...ermm too hyper? haha and thts not a compliment when she gets too hyper...opps! =X Learn a lesson abt how to take cover when bomb exploding..... jux put down the phone... hahax! JOyce gonna kill me! Shhsssh!!!!

Went out with them on thurs... went jon house first to get the flexi-pay form... and umm his house is like... wow... "beautifully-dusted" ermm lets not emphasise much... but one thing i can say.. its such a pity if jon don get joyce as his wife HAHA! COz joyce was like cannot stand it.... take tissues n cloth whatever start wiping... ermm.. cant say she did a good or bad job... but err... lotsa things drop? hahax!

Went to meet huixian and yuan sheng... lucky she is not late..haha joyce patience quite limited tht day... hahax! WEnt SP look ard and then headed off to pastamania and eat... ys and jon treat us.. mux thns them =)haha tht day all of us cant even finish half a plate... too full le haha. Went take photo after tht... sort of lost my temper coz its freaking late and we r gonna late for work...and joyce like don bother..so i was like..."how cld she be so irresponsible" lor... freaking pissed.... but nvm.... we reached there half-an hr late.. mux really be glad tht joan being nice didnt cut our pay...

Yest went out wif paul... err.. think i m a really bad organiser coz for the two place i brought him.. its FREAKING LOTSA PPL!! hahax.. went orchard coz wanna buy shoe.. in the end didnt even get to try coz too much ppl le... then headed off to Raffles Place... he brought me to clark Quay walk walk lor... the place is really nice.. but err.. one thing.. he make me sit at the stairs there along the river with him... and i was like...err.....coz i kinda scare of falling into he river? haha in the end we gave up sitting there. Went to eat at the Hong Lim market, walk ard at china square there... then went back to Clark Quay's coffee bean there lor... hmm..sat there and i m trying to figure out what he gave me for Vdae... well he make me try to figure.... and i tot he got me a eeyore..insist tht he will only give it to me at 7.30pm following the parliament house clock... so yeah... i saw it le... and i really love it.. not gonna say what it is right here but haha.. i really love it.. thnx dear muackx! Yeah walk over to china town after tht... and err second mistake... alot alot of ppl!!! haha paul is like -.-"" hahax... but yeah manage to squeeze out...=D went home after tht.. really enjoy myself heex!

My new hamsters are here.. and god!!!! they are sooooo cute!!!! U guys shld see for urself... heex... =D shall end here.. ciao!

SPEECHLESS!!! Speechless!! speechless!









I ve nv been hate b4.... i think i will experience it soon...









VERY SOON!!!!!!










am still in the blur can......













sigh... and he(not paul) say fuck on e phone...










thts not the worst impact to me...












the worst.......













he say i may end up like RX......











Fine!(sigh....)