If santa ever exist, he will be able to see this....

All i want for christmas is...

To be able to break bond with _ _ H (but i cant afford...so pointless)

If not i just need this simple wish...

To let me change my ward in peace... clean break up with ward _ _

Other than that i dont need anything else

I just need this simple wish to get rid of my depressive mood everyday, unable to sleep at night, all the dreaded feelings etc.

I dont want to end up having any mental issues.

Grant me this wish please, if santa do exist

:)

Cats for you today :)

GOing for a short getaway tml! Be back on thursday evening... Am so gonna relax and enjoy myself tml before my hell begins nxt week.

Aargh lets not tok abt it.

Bye for now!

Hair cut tml

I bet i gonna seat down infront of jeffery and say.....

"i dono what to cut leh... what do you think is suitable for me"

And give him a sheepish smile

Yeah i can forsee tml.

Before i even cut my hair, i have already embarass myself today making a phone call to book an appointment.

2way: hi
me: hello, i will like to book an appointment
2way:oh okie when do you want it to be
me:umm tml, make it 3
2way:sure and your name?
me: alvin (i just tot that giving my name will be tedious having to spell out my chinese name)
2way: oh, guy or girl
me: oh its both
2way: (silence for few second)
me: err i mean 2 person
2way: oh. okie and hp number?
me: ******** (i gave my own number... stupid me)

And tml they are sure going to call me asking for alvin.. -.-"

I suppose they expect a butch call alvin to turn up tml.

Super Duperbly messy table...

Means one thing....

Christmas is coming!

Check out Sinful Taste's Christmas collection on 06 Dec 2007 :)

Did some shopping yesterday... 50 plus goes to my clothes and another 60 plus goes to my beading hobby... Big Damage to my pocket but happy!

More damage to be done soon..

I need a hair cut and a pair of heels....

Bah! Today is the thrid day of my holiday already :(

I am back in one piece!

At least for now

Having my 2 weeks holiday now :D Lotsa things to blog in one goal... blogger better not screw up or else.......

Meet up with vincent and Huixian last friday. Apparently need to get the spongebob lego to make the bracelet that vince request so headed down to suntec to get the stuff. Sadly they refuse to sell the display set keychain so left with no choice but to get the magenet stuff.

(Blogger hang on me 1st time *curse silently)

Anyway.... Patrick star looks like vincent can! Or vincent look like Patrick Star can!

Pardon that look... this guy is still on denial.

Anyway, met hx after that and headed off to eat KFC and chatted at esplanade after that. Here are some photos...

(Fuck! Blogger hang on me again! 2nd time)

hmm no idea why my neck look so long here

You ve no idea how long we took juz to take this pic... my phone doesnt like vince that much i think.

Yay! End of outting.

Alright, what should i blog next?

Oh yes!

Recently... ppl have been telling me the same stuff, on msn, in person, friends, neighbour and relative...out of which, here are the more exaggerated ones that i have got and its getting irritating:

"WAH! what happen to you! Never eat ah ribcage woman!" (Damn fucking mean)

"Yingxian you damn skinny can!" ( i know)

"Wah your face seems to grow longer leh.... you ve been sick ah?" (No i did not! okie yes.. maybe some if some diarrhoea and Gastric counts)

"Ve you been eatting? Not healthy leh!" (Yes i ve been eating and No i did not starve myself on purpose!! Siao!)

"Your eyes going to pop out already you know?" (Hmm why is it still intact one week later)

"Aiyo! Your bones(scapula) can store water on rainy day you know!!" (yes... for you to drink i suppose)

HELLO! Got that bad a not!?!?

Ppl are hard to please can... put on a bit of weight ppl also wan to comment, loss some weight more comments.

No wait... why should i please ppl anyway?

NO i did not purposely reduce my food intake and neither have i been sick or whatsoever rubbish. The reason why i look "bony" is because of my attachment.

Stress + irregular eatting hours(previously) + GE = Bony me

Which person of the right sound mind will want to starve themselve to be skinny?

I, definitely am unable to do that because i can never ever resist the temptation of food let alone starve myself... siao!

Life is hard enough, why make your own life harder?

Enough... end of ranting!

Better get some sleep... 0105am already... nites all!

*sigh i don wanna have that dream again :(

random blurb

End shift today feeling happy.... guess it must have been the staff for afternoon shift today that has made my day... suddenly feel like staying put afterall....

i hope this feeling last long enough... for 3 years at least.

My favorite for now heheheh

Online Videos by Veoh.com

i cant guarantee i will forgive...

Let alone forget

The steamboat outing :)

They must be drawing a million dollar....thats why they are discussing so secretively

Guess what they are doing? Neoprints! :)

Dream house

Have been disappearing from internet for the past dono how many weeks already...jus a little update

Guess what we ve been busying with yest?

Viewing housing plan at HDB.

haha i m serious

starting to plan out the financial stuff real soon.

HOpe we will get the house.

Another of my favorite song last time :)

The thought of not being able to spend any weekends with HIM very very soon makes me very sian...

Cant do things like hanging ard the weekend bazaar that we love on sunday anymore

Cant spend a lazy sunday slacking at our favorite teh tarik place at chinasquare anymore.....

Sigh sigh.

So yest we went to the bazaar, slack at the teh tarik place and spend a whole two hour seating somewhere at china square playing PSP...

I will miss this kinda weekend whole day outting....

Infact....

I miss it already.

I feel like i am going into army for 3 years.... sigh

...

So gonna miss it :(

Feeling depress...

sigh

I am going to Paediatrics for PRCP....

Kill me please

My all time favorite comedian!

:) hee enjoy

Another random

Not in the mood to blog

TOo too busy everyday

Overtime overtime overtime...

Have been coming to work half an hour earlier and leaving way later than working hours

Have been skipping meals during shift... hmm no good....yet too busy

HAve been losing weight... slimming centres should close down....

Have been grabbing every learning opportunity and learning to pass report like a real staff nurse..

Yes... we are working hard.... very hard....





yet there are others who skive...





REALITY....

Randoms

Sometimes i "walk" by ppl's blog... i read... i stop... i dwell for a while wondering if i should leave a comment, i type out my comment and dwell on for few seconds... then i delete them again...

Should i leave a comment?

And i end up leaving none...

i am saddening.

Random

Thanks guys who rmb my bdae :) Lotsa appreciations! Shall tok abt that later...

Right now... i am so tired.....


i feel like giving up....

i really really wish to give up already... i don wish to go on anymore....

if not for the bond i would ve really left... i guess having a bond is my life worst decision... but again... maybe its a matter of bonding the right place....

i wonder if i can pass my 3.2 in peace... walk thru prcp.... as well as my 3 years of bond....

i really hope that day will come soon.... and on the day i finish my 3 years of bond... i can look back and wave goodbye to those days.....

and finally move on to some settings more suitable for me..... or maybe upgrade myself....

either of the above or....

GIVE ME MY OPERATING THEATRE POSTING PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




* sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh

Stressors

Its overwhelming...

Mentally and physically

AND the worst part is...its only the beginning....

BAH!

Still working afternoon shift this friday....

BAH!

:(

Miu Miu coffer

I shall now declare that Miu Miu Coffer is my dream bag!

Saw a red one at suntec, damn should ve bought it... when i turn back it was gone!! Thats a inspired one though....

Haha maybe if i earn 5000 bucks per mth i will get the real Miu Miu import over... lol

Long week...

yea... it has been a different experience + stressful week... i hardly had time for lunch, not even a sip of water, working Overtime everyday regardless of morning or afternoon shift. By the time i reach home, reading up is a big challenge when u r fighting to keep ur eyes open.

Yes... we are beginning to work like a Nurse...

yes, being a nurse aint that easy

2 cases for beginners is enough to suffer a bit. But anyway... abit of suffering in exchange for so much experience is worth though

For this first round of ward attachment, the staff are totally wonderful ppl (for those who knows me, u know its rare that i say that when i am working in ***)

Am so grateful for all the help as well as the staff who go the extra mile...

If not i cant possibly......Survive

Oh yes.... tuesday was lantern festival... and i am working afternooon... felt abit miserable coz past few yrs manage to get together with my friends to burn ants and doing beautiful "colouring" with wax.... especially last year! This year i spent my lantern festival working.... guess thats part of growing up.....

Tml will update abt today's meet up with joyce, finally got ppl ask me to go out and chill after so long atttachment!! :D

Oh randoms

First time taking case today... thought nth much for my patient but when last min admission super stress...write report also damn stress.....

Stress Stress Stress!


All photos below... almost puke blood typing this entry.... blogger hang on me countless time!! Lucky got autosaved system
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Us at Toys'r us... you cant blame us... we ve no childhood :P

:) hehehhe

Our lunch at Hong Lim market, Fish soup, Pork big intestine and Bak Kut Teh. WE LOVE PORK INTESTINE!!! Super nice!!! But then that uncle gave us that ridiculous llook when we said we wanted 2 intestine so we were too embarassed to order more and ended up with only one.... super not shiok.

BAH! so not use to it! Ve been going to speciallise posting, suddenly go back to ward... bah bah bah!

I am so gonna miss veronica!!! Had so much fun gossping with her for the past few weeks!

Anyway, below are some pics that we took during our OT posting and our outing to settlers cafe and clark quay with veron jonathan ming lee and cedric :) The rest of the pics waiting for cedric to send me.

me and veron :)

A monkey game that jon suggest...the sianness when u see all the monkeys came tumbling down

I nv once forget to zi lian...:P

Us! OT scrubby nurse!

Thats all! Off to bed!!!! zzzZZZZzzzz

Guess what pop into my mailbox today?

hehe my babies arrive today :)

Like so many months after ordering then arrive lar...

Nvm good things can wait... took a long time packing.....look like very little variety but there is actually alot.... all in sets of 12... haha can really use dono how long liao...

Cant wait for my hands to fully recover :D

:)

Work in Pac 1 today... super happy :) For the entire week at emergency this is the first time i felt that i am doing work, like a nurse.

So the praying that we secretly did was worth it =p ... shhsh!

Anyway, ve been partnering a NYP student for the entire week, made a new fren, but today is her last day though....

yeah i know my aunty hair damn ugly..stupid fringe + busy day today....

Oh oh... yest i met my bro at Emergency when he is on duty... he asked me hows the staff there and hows working there.... my replied was i prefer the wards... or hopefully OT...

haha if i were to met him today my answer will be different.... yeah i am starting to love ED now...

I shall take back wat i ve said =p

Random pics *Image heavy

These pics are suppose to be posted up one week ago, haha but only had the time to do it today though... love these peps :)

Note: Image heavy

Class pics :) Love them!

No wonder ppl always say NP ppl super hao lian... hahaha =p

:)

We took every opportunity to take photo =p Look at di's -.-" expression hehe

Us at Ngee Ann's Game room

Us being super lame =p

Cedric's family is the car in white... notice that he is the only one with no kids... hahaha, work harder :P

Thats all for now... going to work soon... i miss you peps! Hope u guys re doing fine in attachment! Miss ya all!

I believe you...

Not gonna talk about my attachment... but instead i m going to talk about a novel i have recently read....

half-way...

Its call 'I believe you'

I ve not read a single novel since i have left sec sch...This is a simple, yet touching story and i must say this is a really great novel which nv fail to move me to tears...

Story by Low Kay Hwa, Local story writter

Just to quote one of the sentence " Just when i am starting to look forward to tomorrow, he starts to pray for tomorrow's existence"

sigh...

If you think those weepy taiwanese and korean show is good, i suggest that this is even better....
Heres the website of the story:
http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm

Things doesnt come free of course, if you wanna know the ending please go and buy the book, its so affordable and its definitely worth every single penny so don be cheapo if you wanna know the ending... :)

Heres the trailer, short introduction courtesy of Goodybooks.com :

walking into the 4th day of my holiday...

I ve decided already.... by monday everything will go up on sale...

Painful decision....

i cant describe how i feel...

Rebecca's order shall be the last piece for now

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Lets tok abt smth more cheerful...

Met joyce on monday.. finally after so long we met and watch a movie together!

The last time we watched with jon.... The da vinci code... haha we set at the 2nd row... could nv ve forgotten that...memorable

Bought the same tshirt together... Happy :)

Hang out and stuff..... Happy :)

I wish we could hang out more often....

haha... from the first day since i choose nursing.. i know i ve sacrifice certain things unknowingly in exchange for it.... sigh...

And thanks to her... i am so addicted to Smile pasta (Wei xiao pasta)... left 1 episode.. haha

And i love Nicholas Zhang even more now... haha

But after tml i will ve no more stuff to kill time le...

now is Thursday already... 4 more days till end of holiday.. End of beadsnbuttons and beginning of attachment...

OT attachment on monday... love the 8am to 4pm schedule everyday..

i hope i will stay in OT forever....

Anyway....

Cheerup... yxian

Nites all.

I ve decided...

To stop beading for now till my nerve injury is ok...which i dono when...

Most likely having a big sale to sell off the remaining designs i ve and maybe close down beadsnbuttons... so yeah spread the word for those who ve a wanted a piece yet find it them too ex...

I dono... cant bear to shut it down... ve build up so many contacts over the years, compliments and some reputation...

i dono..... should i close it down and start all over again?

Or should i just made it history?

Aargh! Dono dono dono....

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Oh yes...I FINALLY found my second favorite song that i love since secondary school!



If the you tube thingy cant load... heres the URL, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IaeVPWNoHrQ

Anybody rmb this show????

Please go listen u wont regret :)

Watch the You tube! Pardon the MTV... so long le of coz abit obiang...I think most of you will rmb what show is it, the whistle thing is familiar right? :) haha i rmb i was so stuck on to the show that i bought whistle keychain for hx alvin and ys for souveneirs hahaha... but hmm don rmb is it christmas or wat occassion

Anyway! I uploaded on my PDA, hp and lappy! This song wont runaway anymore!!

I used to ve it... lol i stil rmb last time a sec sch fren call chok fong sent to me... lol so long ago.... used to chat but not anymore....

But my com crash... and i lost that song....sadded!

lol big fan of that canto show! Blarddy sad show...Felt emotional everytime i listen to the song...

So the other day was out with joyce and i heard it again!!!!!!!!! I knew i must dig it out from somewhere!

So finally! After "testing" on so many wrong ones and trying to recall the title and randomly erhem..."borrowed" various songs.... i found it i found it!!!!!

SHall share the lyrics with u guys :)

歌曲：祝君好
歌手：张智霖

听
你不断呼叫我
划破宁静我的心下堕在难过
讲不出爱没结果
口和唇紧紧闭锁
看
也一话都不说
害怕连累你一生
日月憾无缺
只差跟你曾遇过
给过你太多波折
宁愿没拥抱
共你可到老
任由你来去自如
在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到
他比我好
只望停在远处
祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉
说
太多话我想说
但我还是要哑口道别
任由我天空海阔
流翔去只要你白似冰雪
宁愿没拥抱
共你可到老
任由你来去自如
在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在远处
祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉
宁愿没拥抱
共你能够终老任
由你来去自如
在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在远处
祝君安好多么想亲口细诉



Thats all for now... nite!

Nerve injury

..... getting worst

felt the cramp every now and then....

and all the doc said to me is: "Guess u ve got to wait... this kinda thing doesnt recover that fast.... stop your beading for now..."

What?

For now? or forever....

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I wanted to faint when i see the roster today...

yes yes... my lecturer did swop for me....

i am grateful... yes i am

BUT SWOP IN A BIG MISTAKE!

Now i am in the same ward but opp shift with jing and hazel and karen....

and clare is opp shift with bei shan...

we are suppose to be on the same shift with our friends on both our side!

WTH is this!

yes... i wanna bite

Random

Gastritis.......

Nvm...

But nerve injury on wrist.....

That kinda hit me... sigh.

Anyway.... on a lighter note.... took a photo yest with Mr ismail... we love him :) He is my favorite lecturer!!

Its our last lesson yest... but i couldnt make it for the morning lesson coz wasnt feeling well.... this is our last week in school.... will miss ngee ann so so so much...........will miss rushing for class etc...

Very soon.... we will be graduating....

Friends...

Today somebody msg me when i m buried among my project... and it totally caught me by surprise.

Willie msg me:HI how are you feeling? Much better? Its more than a week already le!

I was kinda surprised that he still rmb... as you see its like one week ago... though he only knows that i am sick(and thats it) and feeling horrible but not sure bout the details.

And surprisingly, recently we ve not been chatting much.. been few months since a proper chat... coz we are busy with our own stuff, but this person nv fails to msg me once in a while to ask how i am doing.

Thats really sweet... but i was so busy that i forgot to reply till jux half an hour ago i realised and grab my phone immediately to sms him.

GB too.... this person is also a great person to tok to... though i seldom ve time to chat... but its really great to ve somebody to and to make you feel that you are not forgotten...

And HB... she is really sweet... she nv fails to msg me to see how i was doing...

Yet these are the ppl that i ve overlooked, ppl whom ve left me msges on hp and msn and sometimes i totally forgotten to reply... and i deeply regret... so sorry will improve on that....


However.... there are also friends.... that you thought are your closest friend... or maybe to put it this way "you are my close friends, i was your close friend'' or 'i am your friend, you are my close friend--> read! Get it?

Sometimes, i really feel, that time really does wonders

*Its actually a long entry.... but nvm i ve decided to delete all of it and left 4 sentence of it....

its 12.37am already... nites all.

28.07.07 our 3 years :)

Let the Pictures do the talking :)

Him, with boxful of gingy man :p

Lunch @ Indulgz

Mine.
Yummy Crispy Pasta in cream sauce with chicken and mushroom

His. Beef steak with mash potato

Yum!

Our favorite. Chocolate mousse and Earl Grey Panna Colta :)

Blessed :D

He sent my surprise to my house secretly before meeting me at the mrt. And he brought with him one extra green piece of puzzle and expect me to guess what kinda puzzle with it.... its totally green... how to guess??!!!!

Watch simpsons ater lunch, its really a great movie, go watch :)

zZzz... watch movie also need to have national day commercial -.-""

Alright... update the rest later.... gotta shower...heees outs

OH yes.... will update abt our presentation today :)