today.. hehhe take pics with yuansheng alvin and huixian. FOUR OF US!!!! do u know how hard it is to take pics with the four of us together? Anyway, alvin find it so hard to smile naturally.. maybe is cuz all that that happened.. ys stand beside me... sky falling down...haha..okie.. the logic is.. he cannot be standing beside alvin right? haha...or else later both also cannot smile le then picture not nice le.. lolx. ANyway.. jux so happy. Will love tht pics wahhaha. Anyway,i found tht necklace tht ys gave me for christmas.. thnx god..if not i go kill myself. Memories.. hehe. My first and only necklace... i rather broke then since then nobody gif me necklace le... pathetic right? hehe.. so happy. Oh yah, btw... yan zai, tht guy from 5-01 sang Ou de yang's xiu xiu xiu... so nice lor!!! wah..haha think all the gals will melt.. he fits the image of ou de yang anyway... muahhaha... wonder if the gal he had a crush on will regret not taking him as her bf..=P hehe... hmmm..prelims coming mux work hard wor... hehe. Tml go watch movie with him.. muahaha.. hmm will update tml... muackx all..ve a nice day! Tada!

*slap myself... why do i wan smth from him tht much.. why why?? its not as if i m those who always wan smth from bf.. i m not.. but why i m tht desperate this time.. argh stupid me.

I jux wan to tok to him... i miss him so much... i wan to tok to him at least once today...yet the day start off tht badly... and now? all i wan to do is go to my bed and cry....damn it. If only i know what ve i done wrong... think i shld go and slap myself for causing this whole thing...damn damn damn.

Today emath mock exam... haha 12 marks lost... close case=X WEnt to study with jonathan today. Haha, jonathan say Burger King there not bad... quiet.. in the end.. hahhaha don wana describe.. damn funny... a huge stage there and some kids doing modelling and stuff.. haha Jonathan was like..err forget it. So headed for KFC... hehe msg Paul and tokd him i m there eating chicken... haha he mux ve faint... since i love chicken so much =X Spend time doing some maths.. then he tok abt some stuff... sch and funny stuff.. so funny.... hahhahax... espeically the Seoul Garden thing... hahhax..had a good time there.. left at 6 anyway. Now very tired...*yawn. Will study with him again nxt week... guess schedule damn pack already. Now i keep coughing.. gues si laugh too much today. Help him abit of maths... scared i teach wrong...argh. Hmm.. now feel like sleeping but better stay awake till 10 hahhaha =Dtml down to do 10 yrs series... wont be toking on the phone anymore=)

Whoa.. a record of 2 days nv talk... not bad... didnt know still got ppl can angry so many days one... can become Guiness world record le. *speechless...

Yxian's dummy guide to Policy in dealing with unreasonable fellas

1) Ppl don like me.. then so be it. i cannot expect everyone in the world to like me right? then i am god le

2)If u tok to them and they refuse to tok to u.. so be it.... keep urself happy and stuff=)why? coz these ppl expect u to feel uncomfortable becoz they r ignoring u...note! if u r not at fault, keep urself happy... if u r at fault, of coz u mux feel uncomfortable, if not slap urself =X

3) Never let such things bother u.. becoz only ppl who r too free bother with such stuff

4) ppl don call me i don call ppl =X

5) Stay happy cheerful, little things let it be=) concentrate on study

6) Maybe i shld be catberg since jansen is Dogberg hahaha....=D Mux learn to be sarcastic sometimes too.. hehe

Mydearest frenx. When is the last time ur frenx ve been unhappy over a small ruler tht u 4get to return and refuse to tok to u? SOunds like a familiar primary sch scene? YEah thts right! Bingo my frenx... primary sch.. GOD SAKE PRIMARY SCHOOL!!!! How childish can tht be when ur secondary sch fren do tht too??? -_-""" Hmm advice me...my frenx.. shld i 1) Buy one whole boxes for her to shut her mouth? or 2) Let her face black black everyday for all she want?

Seriously.. i had a bad enough day in sch. Hx one.. nvm.. take its a i big mouth go and tell alan her marks. BUt seriously... if I WERE TO KNOW WILL I TELL THT IDIOTIC ALAN TEO KAY LIANG??? NO!!! OBVIOUSLY NOT!!! Jane one i really cannot tolerate. ONe correction tape she also wanna ji jiao.... and she still say i keep using.. HELLO!!!!! I ONLY USE A FEW TIMES THT DAY!!! NOT EVERYTIME!!!! I NV BORROW FROM HER B4 OK??? OK???Last time she use finish her correction tape then keep using mine.. sometime nv ask i also Let her use... now i only use once then she say until like i cannot afford like tht. Then the ruler... i don mean to what... i am sick.. does she expect me to go back to sch to return her tht precious ruler??? Jux becoz i 4get to return her tht time does tht mean i m not going to return this time?? Its not as if i m not going to return her.. since she like this.. tml i go buy her one whole set of ruler and corection tape to give her. Happy?? She wan to borrow things can.. i borrow her stuff cannot? HOw childish can tht be??? Hx one.. ok take it as i stupid go tell alan.. jane..i m speechless. Like today... she don even know what exactly happen... then she gif such a sarcatic comment.. i am speechless k? NOt the first time tht she dono what happen then she comment. Anyway joyce didnt exactly tell her what happen i think. Everytime something happen... to me especially.. she always comment.. everytime..its my fault..damn.Since she love to commment so much then go debate then...*frustrated.Pardon my words.. if its u.. will YOU be angry?? Btw.. anyone who knows places tht sell stationary in set.. plz let me know..i had enough.

Having fever for so many days already.. temperature jux wont go down. Maybe the virus jux love me so much tht it refuse to leave me? kewlx eh? IN a weather like this... 1st, am sweating away, 2nd am feeling so cold... argh.. can it get any worst than this? Hmm.. still trying very hard to study, concentrate.. hehe. Alvin bring my hw over tht day when i was having m.c. Haha, having a fren let me is so troublesome. hehe, coz he always ve to bring hw for me and stuff.... too bad... he didnt take m.c tht often so i cant return him tht favor =P. Oh yah, alvin, mux "thanks" him eh... for "advertising" for me... When i return sch tht day.. realise how many ppl already know i ve a bf.... thnx eh thnx.. wan me to "treat" u? Think the whole class know le. Tht day watch firework they all ask him, then alvin tell them.. even tell them his name yada yada.... so first thing first... xinya ask me abt it during p.e lesson. Then phy lesson...li jun ask....argh!!!!!!!!! Was telling joyce the other day,tht i wonder what ppl think of me now...desperate??? or what ve they been saying behind my back? Nvm... shall not be bothered abt what other ppl think abt me...... coz the more u r trying to make it right.. the more ppl thinks more complicatedly... so why bother?

Today, he is kinda not himself... coz he jux lost one of his fren. Its scary.. i mean the way he tok... kinda cold, kinda like a stranger to me...but i understand. Some how losing a fren.. this kinda feeling takes time to recover. But it kinda scares me. I remember what alvin say.. he paint a picture of a scene..if i die... ppl will be at my funeral... everyone will be upset yada yada... true... JOyce dreamt tht i died tht time... tht scares her... she say she cry in her dreams... think its time to show my frenx how much i appreciate them...show ppl ard how much i appreciate them=)

Time to spend more time with my frenx.... joyce, hx they all. They kinda "complain" tht i ve been spending too much time with paul hahaha alright alright.. sorry kinda pang sei u guys. They say tht when u ve a boyfriend... u will ve lesser frenx.. true true.. hehex.. but i will somehow balance my time wif u guys k? Mux also squeeze time out for my primary sch frenx. Blame on my bad luck.. whenever they ve outing either i am booked or i m sick... damn. After o'levels, mux go out with HCL.. hehe go take photo together=) Rmb the last time we take pics at cineleisure?so much fun keke... after Os.. hehe cant wait.. cant wait to spend more time with HCL, Primary sch frenx and him. =D

NEws News!!!
I got a B3 for chinese.. okie.. i know its no big deal to some ppl coz its not A1 or A2... but to me it is a big deal! i ve expected to get B4 or below.. and my oral i expect a pass... and i actually got a merit! Whoa! so happy! kekeke... almost fly home 2day. YEAH YEah!!!!!!!!!!! *slap myself*

Fever wont go down... instead it went up... damn. Headache....argh! Now eyes watery watery now...sniff... sniff. Hehe... now i mux aim for L1R5 below 20...if not i can go knock my head against the wall. Aim for this yr olevel

Eng: B3
COmbine humanities: A2
Physic:B4
Chemistry: B4
Math:A2

Total + chinese: 18

This mux be my ideal score..argh!!!!!!!! Better do well for my maths and others.... if not i will not be able to achieve target

Worst scenario

Eng:B4
COmbine humans: B3
Physic:B4
Chem: C5
Maths : B3

Total + chinese: 22

Wah 22 its a hell lot of marks.. cant cant.. mux pray hard... pray!!!!!!!!!!

Tml oral exam..think i shld be praying for my eng oral to go well... with my condition now(stuck nose, soar throat) It will be a miracle if i can pronounce all my wordsa clearly tml.

Hee.. yesterday went to watch fireworks with paul, alvin, huixian and her parents. Actual plan is paul, alvin,hx, melissa, xueli and yuansheng. But after tht too much ppl... then in a mess so nv meet up. Went earlier to cityhall with him... go walk walk at esplanade and marina prominade there. Whoa... 5566 fans, Toro fans.. all stand by there for their performance already. After tht, walk all the way to Raffles place.... to Lao Pak Sat there see got what stuff to eat... then went to raffles place mrt to meet alvin, hx and her parents. Haha, thnx goodness nv meet ys. B4 tht was discussing with him how to handle 3 guys at the same time. Hx lor.. say she will be late.. wan me to go wait for alvin and ys... thnx eh. Want me to go meet 2 guys who refuse to tok to each other and one of them i don even tok to. Then i msg her" huh? then i m stuck with my bf, my ex and my best friend?" guess what is her reply, "yah, goodluck" i was half crying and laughing to myself -_-" Haaha.. he say he can tok to ys and i tok to alvin.. thts a real bad idea... but thts the best we can come up with. Thnx goodness... ys didnt come to meet us. Alvin still got the cheek to laugh at me when he arrive. So... yah.. hx and alvin ve a great time teasing me... what voltage and resistance.. bulb to bright may explode...nvm. Ate western food and satay. Took photo with alvin's cam.. had lotsa fun. Then we go watch fireworks. One word: Beautiful. The firework will be even more beautiful if we r not being block by a building... but overall...GREAT!!! After tht.. road a huge mess. Hx parents lead the way out... then we went separate ways. He send me to esplanade there to find my parents... halfway saw huiping they all.. wanna say a proper hi then he kept walking so i jux say bye and left... finally found my parents... then i ask him to go first and i go meet them. Haha.. my mom say shldnt ask him to go first.. she wanna see him. Argh... shld ve ask him to stay.... hehe... nvm. HAd a great day yest. Will rmb it forever. Thnx frenx.. for the company... thnx u...for ur time. =D

Whoa... cant help it but wanna update... jansen look very funny in his clown costume and face in his friendster. He don even look like himself. Cant recognise his james lye eyes. Jeex... face so white and smooth hahaha but he llooks cute =D

Had a wonderful time yest... start off well ends off well... perfect! Sch celebrating national day.. speech day broing as usual. Yest is also melissa's bdae. Haha... went to sch earlier to wait for the cake to come and prepare everything. Everyone is here..... except hx... we were all bouncing up and down wondering where she is. She is the "main lead" coz she is carrying the cake... yes! the CAKE! But anyway she finally came and we prepare and stuff and signal to xueli ask melissa to come in.. hehe... we all hide ourself and spray ribbons on her. Whoa... after cutting and giving out the cake.. left the cake lighters and stuff there and went for assembly.... speech day boring as usual.... wanna msg yet teachers kept walking abt. After the prize giving.. head straight off to class... Guess what?!?!?! The cake is gone!!! Yeah its gone!And 401 class room is a mess. can u believe it? There is such "hungry ghost" in sch and will even wan to still the cake??? Even my lighter is gone... goodness... but anyway... have to clean up the mess tht whorever made. went to help out at mr chan outlet... there is this entrepreneur bazzar in our sch for charity. Hehe.. me and hx help to draw hena painting in their hand for 1 bucks. Help a bunch of 502 gals draw on thieir hands. haha, once i sit down got alot of ppl queing le.. me not experience yet..but ve to help her draw.. haha hand shaking...so i tell her i don guarantee..if not nice don blame me. haha but after drawing a few.. i find tht i am getting better at it.. hehe.. draw nicer le. So plz with my self. But haha.. i draw my own one very ugly... so argh! haha... but becoz of helping out...i am late for meeting him at bukit batok... argh.. made him wait so long.. how cld i.. but haha i ve to finish off the hand painting for the girl before leaving... if not how can i leave the picture halfway done? hehe... movie at woodland is always great! i mean haha.. some ppl know what i mean. Only funny thing is.. i cld even cut out a piece of chicken meat when i eat western food.. embarasssing right? so i definitely cldnt fit to be a serial killer. Chicken also cannot cut how to kill ppl? haha... anyway.. almost saw off the whole plate... haha mux thnx god tht i didnt cut till the chicken fly to his face.. i will be laughing my head of and feeling sorry at the same time. hahahaha... joyce was laughing when i told her this... this morning. I still rmb the last time i eat western food with her.. haha i use the folk, 'stab' on the meat, leave it up and bite it.. does it reminds u of stone age? hahaha i still rmb she say tht i better don eat western food with him.. if not i will scare him off if i eat like this... true true. Hahaha.... was laughing even harder to myself.. when he said tht his friend once did tht.. and he kinda freak out? lolx..funny right? hmm movie is nice.. the village. But not exactly tht scary. So much so for the eerie part in advertisment... showing the movie preview... not scary at all. hmm.. some parts only.. thts all i can say. Overall.. wonderful time!=) I mux thnx hx... she can make it for firework tml!!! so happy tht i grab her hard. If i can i will definitely hug and kiss her!!!!!!!!(but i m not a lesbian u see) Wah so happy!!! nv love hx so much before hehehe.

ARGH!!! Banana rama did not rise today! Argh!! But haha.. i m stil happy.. i scored the goal for today. YEah! so happy abt tht. Was running around the court today trying to snatch the ball. Funny thing is 18 ppl going after a small little ball size of an orange with a "rod" hahha.... like witch on broom stick haha. Today we draw with chilli padi.. nvm.. we will rise again nxt week. wahhaha!!

Got scared by jansen yest.. scared he go do silly stuff.. calll his phone untill it nearly rot he still didnt pick.. thnx goodness he didnt do silly stuff but smth did happen to him. And i still dare to laugh *slap myself. Haha.. its serious but i cant help laughing.. anyway.. i was trying not to laugh yest. hehe.

so happy.. tml going out.. muahahahaha!!!!

haix..joyce is lucky yet she didnt know it. She has a god bro tht loves her, dote on her so much, care for her so much, yet she is always trying to make herself cry and she don even know why too. THis morning she told me she is worried abt jansen and stuff and how awful she felt. I felt even more awful than she is. Jansen asked her not to tell me whats going on and stuff... and now... even when he go operation, i didnt hear the news from he himself.. i hear it from joyce. I know nth at all. I am afraid.. tht he may go blind...very very very afriad.. yet tht day when joyce told me abt it.. i m very tempted to msg him and ask him if he is alright but yet.... yet i cldnt. I wanna know if he is alright.. yet i cldnt. TOday, went to sch, very scared... asked joyce to call him.. called twice nv pick. IN the end ask her leave voice msg... she leave abit i leave abit. Cant even eat during recess, but hx ask me to eat...so eat lor... at least can eat.I was hoping tht at least he did msg me and tell me tht he is alright after the operation... but he didnt. Now i begin to wonder whether he really think of me the way i think of him as a fren. I mean i don understand why he didnt let me know abt it.Nvm abt tht... i m really glad tht he is alright now... really really glad!

I was thinking... jansen only i am tht worried.. when come to his turn.. then what will i become?? i m scared for him as well....pray pray pray. Think when its his turn then i wont be able to eat and slp already.

I dono why i m like this, maybe i ve nv been thru such situation b4.ive nv been so afraid b4.... Nv in my whole life. Whenever i ve smth... God always take it away from me when i m at my happiest. I don wan this to happen again. Taking a person away from this world is different from breaking the person up... at least when someone breaks up... they r still able to see each other at times...at least u will know the person is ard... taking a person away is diff.. so much diff. I mean i jux don wan anything to happen to him thts all. I really dono what will happen if there comes a day like this. I even asked joyce to pray for him yesterday when she go to church. Now u know how scared i was. I know i shld be stronger than he is coz he needs me ard to support him. In the end, i didnt do much. I got more upset than he is. Jux don like anything happen.. jux hope everything will be alright. I really hope it will come out positive. Really. Now all i can do now is pray tht i wil be able to see the firework with him on his bdae on national day. Nth will happen.. right? Everythign will be alright.....please.