Yep... its time to end
This will be the last entry
But i will keep it here as a memory... afterall it has been 5 years
Its time to know me through me, not through my blog
Let us all make an effort to keep in touch =)
And heres my farewell gift to all...this is something that i ve left it bookmarked as a reminder to myself at all times...something warm..
With love
Yxian
Evening movie... anyone?
There are so much things i wan to do within my leave...
I want to play paint ball
I want to go to the zoo
I want to prepare my own food and go for a picnic
I want to seat at changi airport and watch the plane fly
I want to edit all the photos for TheBaggage
I want to hold a bazaar
I want to come up with more of my own design
I want to study
I want to have a good sleep
I want to do volunteer work
I want ... ...
There are so much things i want to do... but there is so little time...
Humans are born greedy... 24 hrs a day is nv enough... i m one of the greedy human... i wish my day runs 48 hrs
Mr p: hey D say he is looking for a gf! nurse gf hehe got anyone to recommend?
me: why must be nurse gf, must be watch too much nurse anime right? haha
Mr p: no lar nurses very caring and meticulous mahh
Me: OH i m attached but still available *winks
Mr p: WHAT! -_______________________-" #%@!
ME: hehehehehehehe =p
Mr P: ha ha ha -_-""
so yes i couldnt slp...coz of that stupid pain in the head
and i couldnt look up coz it makes me sick...
but couldnt lie straight and fall aslp cause i felt that smth is twirling round and round
switch on the tv but no show to watch..
not knowing what i should do so i swtich on my lappy again n start surfing the net
but the light is bothering my head equally bad..
so i ve to turn the laptop light to as low as possible but visible...
Just ve to do something to keep me occupied to stop me frm concentrating on the headache
surf facebook... itchy hand click that small little window and saw smth i m not suppose to see... damn... shut that little window off
but it bothers me alot...
ignore... surf ard... look at other ppl profile, look at pictures... look through all the facebook community and that stupid mafia war rubbish...
change facebook comment...chatted... left comment...chatted...
read through every single horoscope related to libra...
But i m still bothered
so i close that damn FB window
and log into blogger...
and i m typing this pointless meaningless entry...
aaargh whatever... go slp plz
i hate it when ppl lie... i dont understand why u ve to
1 more week left till end of AL...
Wonder why time pass so fast... yawns
I still wan to go alot of places!!!
Am getting tired easily nowadays...
age is catching up on me (am not even 21)
HAHA
Dear Me,
Ever since the day i made this decision
I ve decided to shut up abt it...to prevent further damage
It shall remain this way...
Its for everyone's benefit
It doesnt matter if i don ve any
As long as everybody is happy
i need constant reminder to myself... from myself...
Yours sincerely
Me
Ever since the day i started working... i ve seen different Dr in and out everyday and i ve never encounter one thats even good looking both internally and externally... nt even close. Its always a either or....
BUT!
Yest night i cant help but agree with my colleague that HE is the MAN!
LOL i bet the theatre was flooding yest... with saliva
me at 4am in the morning... hehe
Goodnight ppl!
Polytrauma (multiple trauma)
*Faints
wore II gown 6 hrs... inclusive 2 hrs of waiting..
3 different set of screws system for just one leg...
4.5 screw 3.2 drill corticle dril corticle sleeve DHS 130 degree mallet self tapping screw cancellous screw top limit screw drive... aaargh
All those words kept repeating in my head... zzz
Confused to the max but interesting haha =)
Stayed back with the team till 11 plus, fly cab home and slept at 12 plus and woke up at 0545hrs today for morning duty
But still happy coz the entire team is great. Great Scrub! (:
Today the same team did a case and i m the scrub
Its totally hillarious to see 2 reg concentrating disecting away while the others stood and tried their arden best to keep their eye lids open... the other 2 students do their nodding rituals... those who are awake and concentrating are the ones who stayed back yest...including me. isnt that funny? Lol
The boss is still trying very hard to dig ans -_____-
First... he tot i m single
Next he saw me and a friend and excitedly thought that it was someone i refused to admit as my bf and cant stop chasing for answer
Today my colleague said: aiya she gt bf already lar u still dono ah
That statement left The boss puzzled and more curious!
Now he thought that i ve 2 bf secretly behind the two guy back... WTH!
That starts him on a brand new set of qns... no matter how i explain it still sounds wrong...-__-
chinese there is a saying: jump into yellow river also cannot cleanse free....looks like i need cidex to keep myself sterile...
HAHAHA! Whatever it is... Where can u get this kinda funny boss elsewhere? Another reason to enjoy work.
Its THE AUDIT today....
Goodluck ppl
And The Boss got big case again....
pray hard he finish early so i don ve to stay back till morning :(
I almost got knock down by a taxi this morning while gg to work...stupid taxi was speeding
I ran about in my N95 mask, theatre super warm and i guess i breathe back too much C02 and while helping to drape the microscope i was so breathless that i wanted to puke and feels faint...
Thankgod everything was settled and i went out for a breather
Ate carrot cake and almost choke a huge piece of it cause i m too breathless
Drag myself home and almost trip and fell along the road....
What the hell is wrong with today man!!!!!
Ve been feeling very tired and very hungry all the time... wonder if there is anything wrong??
I don understand why do you do things like that
How many times do i have to tell you the same thing over and over again...
when the issue blows over you forgot about it again
why doesnt it stay?
I m not really that pissed...but i sure am upset
In case u guys doesnt know pokemon character this is togepi. I just cant take this lying...Why doesnt it look like a starfish in an egg shell?????
Below is a conversation of togepi:
Spartabnn - says:
-.-
starfish has no hands lor
u kuku
tokepi not starfish
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
i where got say starfish got hand
its not hand lar
its part of its star
Spartabnn - says:
star fish no feet de
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
its a carttoooon can u imagine
stoopid
ur primary school nv teach u to imagine is it
=p
Spartabnn - says:
i got scolded drawing an apple purple
coloring an apple i mean
dat was in primary sch
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
-___- thats besides the point
Spartabnn - says:
imagination mahz
i paint the apple purple
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
thats not imagination... thats dumb dumb
Spartabnn - says:
why cant i imagine i paint the apple purple den i draw and color it out
tats an artistic view...
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
-________-
when togepi grow up super cute
okay i jus realise maybe it doesnt look like a star fish
Spartabnn - says:
wat u mean when togepi grow up super cute?
it isnt...
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
coz of the head
Spartabnn - says:
its not a starfish at all
Ying Xian: ji hoo sunbae says:
the head is like a crown like that
Spartabnn - says:
the egg shell is a dinosaur egg
And the argument goes on.....LOL
anyways... i finally found some one who agree with me!
I wan eat KaniNabe says:
looks like ar.
it is starfish in eggshell la
lol.
why nobody agree?then its a 'wat' in an egg?
Wahahhaha! thank you CH i agree too =p
Am pretty irritated with fellow peps of the same line thinking that my job is way simpler than theirs...
Ppl of the same line looking down at ppl of the same line... how disgusting
Honestly... its way different from what you see in attachement... there are ppl from "outside" who came in with a mind set of wanting a "simpler life" ...tried for a few months and didnt make it.... there are also peps who came from "outside" and is still working a few years with us who agreed that its definitely not easy as what they had imagine to be before they came in...
You ppl are so wrong... if you think its easy... come in and see and work for yourself and stop thinking that only what you are doing out there is really the most "superior"
Anyway, Our job... Arent we all here for the same purpose?
Reflect please
Am feeling guilty...
For eatting so much maggie mee this week...
Koka mee korean mee instant porridge...all instant
My colleagues was saying yest i might even drop my hair from so much msg
Aargh...time to stop
My super sernior trying to copy my colleague having a stomach cramp during lunch break...lol if u realise they are wearing the same cap...
23 years vs 53 yrs wahahaha =p
They change my night shift team!!! my super team was split up! =(
Guess what... i m working with a "kampong" of ppl today
nurses should know what i mean
Super dread
Looks like i will be damn busy tonight irregardless if the night is busy or not...
Breakfast with me tml?Anyone??
My super senior told me on friday
Yx! Please be more patient when u key in your temperature....sister ask me to counsell u!! *-.- look
LOL!
My name was on the "Board of Glory"...name highlighted!! YELLOW!
Thou shall be more patient when i key in my temperature b4 i close off the screen
Now that i got myself a new lappy and now that its mine mine and totally mine!!!
Thou shall be good and key in my temperature on time!
Yxian is a good girl (:
Its a terrible terrible night shift to start off with...
Once i walk in... Priority 1 craniotomy....done one side... left side still pending cranio...
Prayed hard pt after CT scan go to ICU...
Damn came back to do the second side.....
Another theatre running AAA.. -.-"
Toook the cranio case.... my second time doing only... no choice no other ppl do liao
Someone's presence stress the hell out of me and i actually broke the syringe while fixing the injection needle on it... lol...
Before the craniotomy even finish.... There is a neuro spine Priority 1 in line.... aarggh
Rushed with my colleague to prepare the Neuro case... great job both not from neuro... lol... read cardex and follow instruction to prepare
Finally after a series of rushing all things are in place... spinal table ready.... waiting for pt to come...
Then came another PRIORITY ONE ECTOPIC PREGNANCY!
*faints...
Did that case... run that case for my colleagues since she nv do before....
After that case, did neuro and came another Lap appendix....
*Lie flat on the ground....
But at the end of the day... we found ourselve laughing and in a great mood...
Ppl tot we were having a great night with no cases...lol
In fact... we were "woken up" by so many Priority 1s that the "excitement" just wont died down...
And me and two of my colleague got ourselve a good coffee bean breakfast as a treat for ourselve for the hardwork yest hees
The whole night is fun! =p
Meet alvin yest... like finally after so many clash duty and cancelled meet ups
Ate the Bak kut teh opp concourse... still good... super bloated
Drank at cheeky chocolate...so so only the coffee... their packaging for chocolates are kidna disappointing...
Good food good companion and good chat
And u cant deny that guys are superficial in many ways ahaha....
Hope the next meeting aint too long eh?
Today my boss treated us to strawberry cream cheese
Except that the strawberry cream cheese comes out from an extremely extensive neck abscess
Strawberry cream cheese = pus pus and alot alot alot of pus!!!! Mix with blood of coz
Its really alot alot of pus... endless
1st hr... get rid of outer layer.... pus pus pus
2nd hr.... still getting rid of pus
3rd hr... still got pocket... pus again... zzz
Took us close to 4 hrs to clear the neck abscess... or rather neck dissection
Nearly half of the neck is gone.... looks like we will ve a flap case coming up soon.
Really happy to scrub for my boss... haven scrub for his case for a long time
Whenever there is an 'E' case(other than FB)... they will all come down together in a team to do the case together.. irregardless of whoever consultant is incharge of the case.
Am proud to be in my discipline =)
And my boss haven "let me off" yet... he is still "pestering" me for answers lol! and he ask me:
boss: "how long ago since u r in sec sch?"
me: Wei i not very old okay!! even though i look old
Boss: so how long ago? 10 years??
me: -.-"" no lar!
Boss: *give questionable look
me: Just 4 years ago lor!
Boss: oh is it?! *eyes open super big
me: nvm
hahahaha..... Night shift tml with my super team! Looking forward =)
HAPPY 21ST HAZEL LIM KOON ZHI!!!! =P
Hope you like our limited edition, one and only one "designer" cake eh? hehe...
I hope you are used to your upsized cup already *cough cough
Heees!
i m glad i ve someone to ventilate after wrk...thanks a million!
Yest was one hell of a day.
As though wrking long hrs after afternoon shift is nt bad enough, i was working wif shitty ppl the whole day!
cases nt properly prepared, things nt in place i gt shit frm surgeon when its nt my fault.
does it kill u surgeons to ve some patience?
asked to run LA case for a surgeon with AP n wrk shit again...
i as a OT nurse is wrking as a patient advocate n surgery assistance...not ur private assistance! stop ordering me ard from lt to rt! it cld really help if u ask nicely n be patience!
blahz...n otherbthings which i don wanna mention...
mid shift i m pissed alrdy...end of wrk i m literally so boiling mad tht i refuse to talk!
aargh! hope my long hrs today will be good!
nevertheless, whenever i tot of my conversation wif prof reslly cheer me up alittle haha...
你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
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i really shld work 24/7 365 days.....
Trying my best to make it as professional looking as possible.... full update soon... yawns
Listened to Zchen's new song.... hee still love his voice...
But somehow i love his "old" look better... as in before he did smth to his mouth... or teeth... make his mv look so weird... haha
Just like Lin feng... before plastic looks cute... after plastic look gayish.... aargh... whats wrong with male celeb nowadays?
Anyway... random stuff aside...
Am at EOT again today...haha not like its smth new
Haha nvm i am starting to love EOT... hees...
Did ORIF again today... haha volunteered to take coz i m not familiar with this ORIF... so many different weird sets...
Plates... Drill... measuring gauge... measure screw... tap... fit in screw.... drill again.... measure... screw... locking screw... cancellous screw...partially threaded fully threaded... corticle screws -.-" blahs...
hahaha feel like a assistant technician....stress but fun! come to think of it actually quite simple...
Cirulated for a BKA (Below knee amputation) today...haha first time i seen the full procedure...
And i hold the bucket for my scrub nurse while she place the leg into the bucket....
Thanks eh.... the blood splash all over my scrub.... -.-"" and we were both trying hard not to laugh behind our mask....
Bah... lucky nv stain my tshirt inside orelse i will look like a murderer!
Some how i am glad i am here... not elsewhere....where i love my job =)
Oh yes! MO rotation again... hehehe the irritating MO i always see in EOT is gone Gone GONE! =p
And my favorite MO is back.. as a reg now hehehe!
We need more superbly nice docs ya? hehehe
* Disclamer: i am not being a sadist... neither am i gloating at other ppl's unhappiness..i just love my everyday job and interesting things that i see... thats all. =D
Hahaha..... i swear i cannot stop laughing when i see this video for the first time... the song is nice...smth fresh... but the MV makes him look so funny! Especially the dance....
Nevertheless i am still his no 1 fan =p
I think i am spoiling my image... hahahha... oh i forgot i ve not image to spoil in th first place...
Jing did my make up.... i think they are too scary but she said they are nice.... don think i will ever step out like that... haha...eyes too big
Hate livejournal sometimes...
-_-"
They make me stop and think if i am a human everytime i try to type a comment in hazel's blog
Stupid
Back from night shift... had a full breakfast... now m gg to slp thru lunch all the way till dinner time =)
i really wonder if i m really e clueless one...
time to wake up n move on
whatever thats nt known shall remain unknown
face up the reality n stop running
certain things will remain unchanged
even though u may want it badly....
no. it wont change
Our bags arrive!!! =)
These are just one of each design... two big boxes at my house.... spent half of my off day today taking photo of each individual pieces...
My model still haven come and pose for me lor... Pan jing jing! When is ur next off day! hahaha... so excited =p
Cant wait for the lauch of our new website soon... hees
Okay! Time to get back to my photoshop... bah...
Assist in delivering baby today....
Just finish a case actually then they page me there...
Lol so i just go scrub without knowing who is my surgeon...
Then a MO walk in.... so i asked..."so who is the surgeon doing this case?"
Oh is Prof ***
me: *still no idea who is that* oh okay then
Preparing my stuff...
So my O&G fren walk in... and i ask her
me: Hey who is this Prof *** is he nice?
Fren: OH! he ah! He is the 最不好的!.... oh i mean... He is very fierce
me: *froze* -.-" errr okay.... 惨了啦!
Fren: Usually his case junior don scrub...
Me: =.=" errrs okay
Fren: aiya don worry... he sometimes good mood he is okay, somemore Spinal don think he will scold
Me: *turn around, patient under GA already* -.-"" oh... errr okaaaayyyy..... its GA
*so me and my fren stare at each other...
Haiya 死拼了!!
Not like i dono how to do right... 骂就骂
Lucky things went smoothly and he didnt scold me, lol
And he asked me "are u on call yesterday?"
BUt he didnt say why he asked...
Anyway after the surgery...he said " very good! thank you very much!"
I can finally hear myself breathing behing my face shield and N95 heees
Wooo hooo!!! =p
Happy to see all my colleagues today, happy to be part of the team =)
Some ppl are deployed to the triage to help... some to KRW...
Anyway... first day back to work...
Heres my routine today:
0800hrs
- Wear the stupid N95 mask....
- Check through list of the day, check patient
- Called my surgeon, Called my anaesthetist to review patient
- Case cancelled.... patient bad flu...
- Called surgeon, called ward, called recovery... inform inform inform
- Go for mask fitting...so many ppl... walk back again
- End up at Emergency theatre to help....
- Circulate...
- Call surgeon
-Answer surgeon's endless phone call
- Answer theatre...yet again... endless phone call
- Surgeon stupid phone ring again... this time two phone together...
- Arrange next case
- Sent patient out...
- Prepare instruments for next case
- Wear the stupid PPE, running around....
- Wear the stupid PPE again... this time N95 not enough must add face shield... send patient to ICU
- Get theatre ready for next E-case.... prepare to scrub....
- Scrub for tracheostomy
- Wear gown, Stupid N95+ faceshield....
- Almost suffocated in the double mask and under Hot OT light... cant imagine if i were to wear an II gown...
- Case finish, wash instruments... next case is sent again
- Circulate....
- Instruments not in place... run..Run... RUN!
- Answered alot of stupid phonecalls again and took alot of notes...
- Patient BP plunge!!!
- Put on PPE sent pt to ICU again...
- Circulate for next case again....
1800 hrs... end duty....
Of cos this is only a summarised version...
I officially hate the combination of N95 mask and fluid shield.... i ve to breathe thru my mouth... hard like a gold fish...nausea also...
And we all look like ninja turtle.... hahaha
I read thru the "test paper" 4 times today "submitted" by a fren
I read it thru thoroughly...
The questions set by the "examiner" are very straight forward ...
But the answers given are tricky...with alot of twist and turn...
However i manage to understand them...
Thanks for sharing the answers.....
Even though it was just a innocent test paper....
But the answer are clearer than water.
Wake up at 0930
Ate breakfast
Vacuum the house
Cleared my desk
Checked my pay
Here i am infront of the com again....
Stupid taiwan website took so long to send out my bags... they said its either today or tml.... wonder why if their productivity is always so low....
and they like to end their sentence with....喔! 唷! follow by ^^
-.-"
* yawn looks like i will spend another day rotting at home again...
.... thats why i am updating twice today...
haha looking thru all the friendster comments from my friend last time really bring back memories... haha some are really damn funny....
We ve all grown up and come a long way le.....
hahaha let me paste some funny testimonials here:
The close friend category....
1) "Heya.. Best friend.. Donno why.. this little girl think i her best friend.. maybe b'coz i always drop over to her house when she sick.. give her surprise during her b'days.. or that i made her cry before.. and yeah.. she realli rocks.. try to make me realli happy when organising stuff when my b'day and stuff.. always there when i'm low and unhappy.. realli realli realli great pal.. lurve ya pal.. take care.. and ROCK ON!!!" ---> Best friend can recognise anot... u write one okay! thanks for making me cry after i fail my chem test.... i still hate chemistry. lol!
2) after so many years.. think i've tortured you enuff and yeah.. think i'll finally give you a break... and yeah. thanks for being there for me when i was at my lowest.. luffing and crying with along the way and growing up together and becoming who we are today.. really appreciate you as a friend and remember to call me out when u're free k? hope to have to fun times with u and the gang.. Hope u liked the pressie i gave ya and yeah.. i'll give more to see ur smile.. --> another one from same best friend... thank you... for always being one sms away for coffee talk session =)
3) (....) just want to tell u that although we haven talked much recently, i miss u! i miss talking to u on the phone, i miss chatting away with u, i miss shopping, i miss everything and everything i done with u..i cant wait for the exams to be over.. i hope it will be over soon.. then we can meet up again! (...) --> Another best friend... not sure if u still miss it... haha over the years don seem to catch up much.... always arguing with each other but still u are my best gal pal...
4) sorry for the blue black. but the ants told me that u are mean so i must help them revenge. although u are my best friend, but i am partial. because the ants told me that u burnt it with joss stick, put it in oil and make it explode. they say it was very painful..but the ants say i can only give u a pinch like an ant bite.. so very sorry. the ants ask me to do it one. *innocent look.HAHAHA! i am retarded i know. since when am i not ---> same gal pal.... haha who else but joyce =)
5) heyhey....nurse ying xian...hw come u eat so much?haha greedy pig ar?nt scared grow fat?haha...still rem bad exp wif the Padang open concert aha...but thnks for the special passes though:p hey i now holidaes le..when u free? frm earlier tis yr sae sing K sae till todae still haven K haha... --> ya this testimonial from 2006, then untill 2009 then finally we go KBOX together.... how can MR LEE!
The usual gossip bunch....
6)you BURN ants, just to hear that 'pop' sound!!!! i still rem that! --> LOL
7) i will miss working w u man! but stil, i enjoyed tis 4 weeks w you. e company, being my makan partner, e gossips, every single thing. thanks! and today's outing was fun! screaming n yelling at settlers. strolling down clark quay. simple yet heartwarming. i really dont look 4ward to ward attachment lah. sian. hopefully will get to chit chat a little here n dere during breaks in kopitiam or staff canteen huh. meanwhile, take care! loves! ---> Veron miss u girl! Where u disappear to!
8) hey xian yu!!*im DAMN happy to have known u larAll the GOSSIPS we had was just greatOur clique ROCKS lehcant wait for the next attachment to come so i can see more of SALTED FISH=] Cheers,its been GREAT since i known u =] --> it has been great for me too hazel lim since the first day of attachment together!
The not so close ones.....
9) yingxian's very kind. She always lend me her sissors whenever i need it. She got 2 sissors, one in pink, another in green, i think. Rmb teasing her whenever i'm bored. I'll tease her green nalgene waterbottle, crap abt leopard print bra stap etc. But the joke i'll always remeber is the one concerning that BIG guy who likes her. ahem. Abt their kids name if they get married. One dozen, two dozen...Can remember? ---> haha leopard bra strap? from a girl that seats in front of me during sec sch... so mean but funny... can u recognise urself too?
10) what happened to my testimonial? okok.. let me write you another one.. lol.. yingxian overall is a nice gal, outgoing, and always very in to the HCL clad... by the way, congrats upon the commercement of HCL!@ **nv ask me join:( ........(blahs) ---> hahhaha hcl! so damn history.... and come to think of it we are really i mean bunch of girls to ve set up a.... ahem... HCL. i still rmb the meaning behind it.
11) Her facial expression when she get anxious is very hilarious... When she found out got test or what, her eyes will be big and funny... Haha. ---> WTH
12) where ur testis went to? lol tc!!! all d best --> as far as i rmb i don think i have them at all..... no wonder u ask me to tc.... you thought they ran away is it? hahaha.
Got one super classic.. but not so nice to put here...u nv know who is reading.....
haha and other lame testimonials that come from ppl that obviously doesnt noe u that well... and giving u testimonial hopefully u will give them one too... lol those were the days isnt it?
hahaha even funnier ones.... that say i am gentle nice sweet lady like--> omfg when was i gentle and nice? soft spoken is even more funny! haha i ve always been the chor lor one among the girls.... even more famous for talking damn loud.... hahha these are the ppl that nv really know me at all.
Anyway, best friend close friend good friend whatever terms that was given in testimonial in those days.... honestly, the real good friends are the one who is still walking with you along the way isnt it? After so many years....its really not the quantity that counts, you really don need alot of so-called "best friend" ya? Anyway, 3 cheers to friendship!
I wonder if there is anyone reading my blog.... guess i should close it soon?
Accompany my friend(annonymous) for a singing contest yesterday
Its kinda enjoyable though, seeing how other competitor sings and stuff plus those comments given by judges =)
I can say he/she actually did pretty well as compared to past sessions =)
Oh ya...met another two huayian who knows who i am but i dono who are they.... short term memory 不好意思!
Anyway, this is for you (:
不管最终是赢或输都无所谓, 不必在意台下的人怎么看你,在过程得到宝贵经验才是最终的收获!
Have been waiting for my bags from taiwan to arrive.... sending out nurmerous emails in chinese to them...
Its extremely tedious i can say... for someone who have not written a proper paragraph in chinese since secondary school... typing out han yu ping yin word by word, deleting and editing my email over and over again so that it doesnt sounds like some retard typing chinese....
I can say now because of that i am in love to typing in chinese... =X
算了! 还是不要用我的底水隼华文来下人.....
Finally my appointment letter from NUH arrive... gg to C clinic on 30th apr.... hope i dont get scolding for not gg to physio...
HOnestly i believe that my knee problem will not be improved by gg physio but... i seriously hope i wont be schedule for any arthroscopy....
I definitely do not wish to be wheeled into OT as a patient...
Bah...scary!
Thats all for now.... i shall continue to stone for the rest of the day... playing with.... facebook?
ha... byebye
On leave for one week alrdy.... time really pass when you are enjoying yourself. Am trying to meet up as many ppl as possible this time round, so still queing la the list =p
Hmm this week... i ve spent time with my mum, visit my little niece victoria, meet up with jing chyehock alvin.
and i am going away today.... for one day... shall not mention where.
so i have one more week left... and i still have not meet cedric minglee and dionne. haha this time its not me who is the one who need one week advance appointment =P
so i meet up yest with Mr potato(cannot anyhow write name now hahaha) ...gave him that name yest since he is a "kan dan"...oh yes and half a woman living in him haha.
The best part abt coffee session with him is that.... you dont even have to open your mouth and he knows what kinda things i m gonna bring up.... as though its written all over my face.
And so we talk about pushing line and drawing lines....art lessons.... abt cheena and potatos...hahaha
Haha anyway mr potato.... i want to eat your risotto soon lar... don even know how to spell it.
Anyway... gg off soon....ciao!
你指向远方 爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光 钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动 是泪无法储藏
把美梦锁上 以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光在空中翱翔
还得乔装安份 靠在你肩膀
放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱
你说你喜欢 我笑得开朗
你越温柔 我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你 我感觉更勉强
别人的幸福 何必要模仿
心不在何苦 留躯壳在身旁
加满自由 我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场
放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱 会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手
我的心 为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错
放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手
放了爱 我放了爱
