Randoms again

Finally found time to blog

Met joyce today, hang out, shopping etc.... laugh crap blahz.... My mood was better already. Thanks for the company today =)

For the past weeks at work.... Sarcasm, scolding, sarcasm, scolding.....got myself shot up down left right center... endless

Took 2 MC in one week

Wrote 2 ehor... in one week

Secretly Cried at work, cried after work, don dare to go home after crying, seat at the park talking to dionne and cry again....mom asked me wat happen, told her what happen and she told me all jobs are the same -.-", Gave up. miserable all week... feeling stress up all weekend, cant enjoy myself properly.... Tot of quiting but no money to quit

That basically sum up my few months of work...

i had enough!

This week was ok.... felt better... working harder... trying to prove myself... Drs treat me better, got one compliment....thats all but better than nth...

i hope next week will be even better....

I cant rmb when was the last time i felt this low...

Everytime i told myself to stand right up again and move on...telling myself that i will walk right out of it very soon...

Coz i don wanna be a loser...i don wish to give up, though most regretfully the only reason that i didnt give up is that i am left without a choice

But this time, i am hit again and again with more and more setback...

It feels like a bad dream...those that you kick and struggle your way out of that bad dream....

Except... that this time, i cant get out of it.... the nightmare continues...

ANd the worst thing is that u may unknowingly drag ppl down with you...

I hate that.

If there is anything that has got to do with me, then it shall be just me.... why should there be others involve....

Its so complicated

My 601st post...34 months 20 days left

Stress +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Sigh

HELP! Can somebody help me?!?!?!?!

Diamond......NOT

Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
hehehe
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
i show u diamond
I am yingxian, and you? says:
wheere
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
u close ur eyes
I am yingxian, and you? says:
must be bluff one
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
really ish diamond
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
http://www.htc.com/www/product.aspx?id=46278
I am yingxian, and you? says:
WHERE
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
nah
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
DIAMOND
I am yingxian, and you? says:
don wan tok to u
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
i ish never bruff chiu
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
chiu marry me after i buy thish diamond for chiu?
I am yingxian, and you? says:
u wish
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
i wishing
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
muack
Spartabnn - slow typist.. says:
hehe

Thoughts...

Life is damn horrible this entire week

The only different is those doc treat me slightly better....

Thats all

Read karen blog.... she ve one entry on this "bond" thing....

What she said is so true...

Sigh

I told HIM today.... guys ve to serve national service, girls should serve health care service

To work two years in nursing....

Then ppl will understand and treat nurses better instead of thinking its an easy job

I seriously feel as thoungh i am serving national service....

Not physically, but mentally

27 May 2008 Ngee Ann Polytechnic School of Health Science Nursing Pioneer batch Graduation Ceremony

Will Blog the rest when i ve time (:

Well well...

I proved my point.

Honestly, its time to grow up

And i dont mean it in a sarcastic way... i meant well... really

Its not abt the little things, certain things are built up over the years

Ppl gets tired of repeating the same thing over and over again

ONe day they will just give up.

As far as i do not wish to....

It really does gets tiring..

letting go is more painful than being given up.

You did laugh at what i am saying now, or probably hopping mad

But...

I hope one day u will see the bigger picture

Respect

Doctors.... whats so cool about them?

There are ppl who join our line in the hope to meet one and you know....hopefully date one of them

Please.... i have lost half my respect to these ppl....

How will you feel if they totally do not respect you as a human, judging from the facts that you are a newcomer?

Have you not been a newcomer before?

So you are saying that you are born to do surgery eh?

I applause for you if thats the case

I am sorry to say... if you do not respect one as an individual, nobody will respect you

I always told myself that i do not necessarily treat other ppl the same way as how they treat me... as long as i prove myself to be sincere then one day i will prove them wrong

But some ppl really dont deserve being treated nicely

I have been stress-ed since i dont rmb when...

Its only building up.... and i feel that i no longer feels like talking much anymore....you just feel like seating alone and feel miserable on your own... away from any existing human

I may have forgotten about all these depressing stuff for a while, when i am out and enjoying myself a little

BUt once i am back home.... everything comes back

I wont be surprise if i stop talking one day






so guys.... don be surprise too