sigh....

very unhappy at work... if not for the 24 bucks i cld ve quit..need the money badly(not to splurge) joan tot tht her 4 bucks per hr is alot -.-"

1) i pray tht i wont do any careless mistake in work...
2) i hope tht joan will see my effort in my work(even though i really put in alot and she keep assuming tht me and joyce were like playing at work when we r not-.-")
3)I pray tht everything will goes on especially smoothly at work..especially from the 4th april onwards till 15th april when i m alone for my shift + the rest of the april mth... plz plz plz
4) i still don understand...what does she mean....hmmm
5)i pray tht she will stop assuming.... sigh....

Zhang zhi chen: MO Ri Zhi lian

Close ur eyes, hold ur tears, plz don cry
b4 the end of e world, plz stay by my side
look... the sun has darken n the moon has gone
i jux wan 2 hold ur hand and take u around the world for the last time

The darkness has befall, don be afraid, i love u
b4 e end of the world, plz stay by my side
If there is anything else i ve miss in this world
tht will be the hug i ve given u.....

JJ + JOyce = triple J ??

HMm time to wake someone up... haha. joyce really think Wayne Lin JUn Jie is her bf le =Pp let me copy abit of the conversation...

¤°±•j.ø.¥.č.땱° says:
he got eye bag..haha.. seriously.. he not photogenic..his looks far from how he look like in my dream
y x i a n: Zcheng =D says:
lol but he is stil ur shuai ge in ur dream right?
y x i a n: Zcheng =D says:
hahaha sooooo sweeett right?
y x i a n: Zcheng =D says:
heex.. hold hand somemore
¤°±•j.ø.¥.č.땱° says:
ya lo
¤°±•j.ø.¥.č.땱° says:
he hold my hand de lehz

lolx...pity JJ...haix.. opps joyce is gonna kill me muahaha.. but its okie =Pp... WHO ASK HER TO SAY ZCHENG LOOK RETARD IN THE PHOTO BELOW.... its cute okie! Aargh whole con abt JJ... i don wanna get diabetes.. better run muahaha!

this is the one tht joyce say was retard.. its not okie.. tot its cute? 

hmm...was downloading zcheng photos since like 6+ ? haha i jux love his songs... coz his lyrics was rather meaningful.. hmm got a few nice pics of him =) Now listening to shi ren.... haha ok.. again? but jux love tht songs so... lol... Zhang dong liang songs also not bad.. think i like all singers from malaysia... haha like fish leong too? =) They really sing very well.. don ya think so?

Recently feel quite alone... maybe somehow all my frenx were like leading their own life? hmmx or maybe we r heading to a different route... so... looks like everything will be different hmm? Life is boring... for now.. haha hope there iwll be changes when i go poly.. sometimes i really wonder... what wil my life be likein poly.. will i get to know alot of frenx? hmm.. will i ve fun like when i m in secondary sch? outings in grps? hmm i really wonder... hahax... dono why.. i feel tht i ve aged.... lolx... dono if its the right word.. but yeah... or shld i say grow up? or shld i say time pass so fast and b4 u knew it everything jux swift by and u cant even make them stop... hmmm... sad right?

hmm i ve a feeling tht in future.. my life will be like... interesting.. as in more interesting... may get to know alot of ppl... but not now... not in the near future... mayeb somewhere far.. i dono.. haha lol... dreams maybe.. dreams....

zcheng with fish leong.. both are my fav singers =) 

heex this is the pic tht i like... very natural look =P 

NIcholas! though m not his die hard fan... i really love his voice=) heex 

me! 

lol really love this pics... taken on the mrt heex.. thts the second time i change my hairstyle =X 

Washing toilets -.-"

Let me recap on what happen at work today... work quite slack.. got nth tmuch to do untill joyce "volunteered" to ask for a job... well i shall say thts a really "great" idea coz it really "kept us busy" till 4.30+++... and guess whats the job? clean 2 freaking dirty fan + toilet.....

Wait a minute..... its suppose to be a "volunteer" work for joyce..... but as joyce said... you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang.... so poor me... i got drag into it as weelll... sad right? hahax

so first.. joyce climb up to take down the fans..... end up like she climb into a charcoal room(not exagerating) then i end up helping her clean the fans...and her? she wipe the fan only hahhahha! no lah... she clean the cover of the first one and the rest i do.. haha end up dirtying the whole toilet then both of us ve to scrub the toilet... haha... mux sayasking her to help clean toilet is kinda like haha funny? i was scruing the floor at one corner trying to get the dirt out... then she is using the water to spray it back -.-" funny right? haha we end up laughing the whole time... so jing qi was like wah u guys wash till so happy ah? haha but yah not bad.. in the end got sushi treat from joan=D haha nice right? yeah so much so for today...

today reach home... was still pretty upset.... yeah listen to alot of songs make me more upset... in the end went to blog lor... go and look back to alot of photos.. some of them are posted on my blog le... sigh... sigh sigh...... don think can slp tonight also...

all my toys.. clockwise from left tiger:xueli christmas prezzie, slyvester:Paul christmas prezzie, Cat:jon bdae prezzie, Small tiger: alvin(he gonna bash me), 2 hello kitty:alvin surprise prezzie(almost got him into an accident=x), all the small eeyores: paul prezzie from all occasion, Pooh bear: yuansheng 2nd christmas party prezzie) big eeyore: JOn 

me and sotong again =Pp 

me and joyce=P 

me and jon 

hmm jux receive pics tht we take in sch tht day.. nice right? 

sian nv feel so awful before... cant think, cant slp, cant whatever whatever..... sigh... think i jux feel freaking sad....AAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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sian nv feel so awful before... cant think, cant slp, cant whatever whatever..... sigh... think i jux feel freaking sad....AAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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Li sheng Jie Sam : 手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门对着夜幕发呆
看着往事 一幕一幕 再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱 我学不来 眼睁睁看情变坏
眼睁睁看情感慨
不能给你未来 我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待 当眼泪留下来
伤已超载 分开也是另一种明白

Chorus
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

i wish i can go and die.....

Today work quite alright lor.... surprisingly joan is extra nice today...think its the weather.. hmmx... scare my mum today feel really guilty abt tht... toking abt guilty... reminds me abt wednesday.Went to pay the JAE registration fee... suppose to go alone coz hx cannot make it... and joyce dad wan her to go in the morning yada yada... then end up me alone lor... then it happens tht jon acc joyce to pay the fee in the morning... so yeah.. he msged me and asked me if i wanna hang out at west mall... yada yada and he found out tht i wanna pay too so he decided to acc me to pay lor... feel so grateful.. if not i ve to go alone.. so sad right? Went to Tiong Bahru after tht... walk ard and stuff.. plan to hang out there and then take train together to jurong to meet paul and he go back to sch... half way thru while we were waitng for this little guy to get done and over with his "ultra long" game in the arcade.... paul called me to say tht he is already in the taxi and he'smeeting me at the taxi stand so tht he can take me all the way to jurong on the cab.... and well here comes the guilty part.... i ve got to go off and leave jon there all alone by himself.. i was even more guilty when i found out tht joyce "fly his aeroplane" earlier on too at PS.... guilty guilty.... worst of all... he got me a eeyore which is sooo cute... and it kept staring at me when i was on my taxi... makes me ultra guilty... sigh... was very guilty throughout the whole dinner... yeah... m so sorry!

okie... i reallly... reallly.... hope tht i can stay till nxt mth... i still need money for my new spects for god sake! Aargh! Jux hope tht everything will go really really well.. no mistake... no carelessness no nth for joan to get angry with me... plzzzzz?!?!?!

m back... my day start off alright end off rather badly but nvm.. doesnt really affect me in anyway coz i sorta get numb already... joan recently bad-temper.... -.- but anyway.... she make it sounds like me and joyce(though she sometimes quite blur but recently like not much mistake wat) really made a hell lota mistake after we collect our results so well...either we improve or till end of this mth.... -.-" but from what i know... i only made 2 minor mistake after i collect my results... both mistake is the photo thingy... once last week once yest.... and yeah.. she was pretty angry... funny thing is usually she wont be angry over such things...weird. Then today she say tht some customer complained abt those books.. as far as i m concern... i don rmb seeing them anyway... Anyway.. went home with jin qi.. talk on the way... told her don rmb me and joyce make tht much of a deprovement.. she say tht day joyce make quite a lot of mistake when printing books and joan quite angry... not sure.. joyce nv mention anyway...my nose kept getting more and more serious...sian... now cant breathe.... sigh....

Yeah! got back from shangri-la hotel le... the place is so nice... so comfortable tht u jux don feel like booking out can.. haha was lazing ard in the room the whole day lor.... haha the bed is so comfy! okie... don wanna sound like a mounain turtle... but compare to Genting first world hotel... this i sso much much better... world apart heex!

Yawn! i very tired leh... don feel like going to work... sigh..

YEA man! i m done!(finally) at 5.13 am...zzZZzz..........!

I m in a mess... i dono how many ppl will hate me after the whole episode... i guess it will be alot.. but it will be for the person own good.. he/she will understand one day... i wonder how many ppl will be angry with me... sigh... i hope some will understand my position... i really hope they will listen to me too....i shall try to explain... i hope he/she will understand...

thnx to the JAE online... i jux realise tht i ve a wide range variety of grammar vulgarity....its so freaking slow!!!!!!!!!!

HAven take result... cannot slp... take le result, haven see eligible for wat course also cannot slp... all i can conclude is this yr online weby to see ur eligible course is not such a good idea after all.... cox... its bloody hell jammed up!

F*ck, F*ck,F*ckety,F*ck!