Hmm.. feel a teeny weeny bit better when i woke up today! *smilex. He is coming over today with his cake... ... made for my mum -_-"" but i still get to eat it anyway hahhaa so whats the diff.=P Alright time to blog abt yest. Yest, went to study with joyce and jonathan, actualy fact.. when to study "the art of talking" coz we were crapping like nobodys business. Hahax. Felt much better when sitting down and toking to them, especially jonathan with his hillarious jokes and stuff. Hahax, then we saw 2 malay guys "flirting" with middle age woman... (or so we tot)haha then cant stop laughing. We tok abt sch stuff, funny stuff, movies, ghost film, police cops(jackie chan film), blah blahx.. haha, really enjoyed my self. But, haha nv done any maths though. Nxt time mux do some maths le, if not i m wasting jonathan's time. After tht go walk walk, go jurong entertainment coz jon wanna go find stanley... *surprise. See alvin, kok wee, xinru blah blah bunch of hua yians there ready for "battle", nah is half way thru "battle"... counter strike. haha. Went to library later.. then went to park with joyce...sit there and flood the place b4 heading home. =D Alright i seems so proud of myself tht i flooded the place -_-" Watch the nxt american top model. ONe of them was left behind. So sad for her... and was crying so badly and stuff.Guess she didnt know april wana go back to wake her up while the rest disagree..*shrug. Haix nvm... alrighty, thts all for today.. ta da!!Happy 2 mths dear.. muack!

WHY? Why? why?

Why mux things turn out this way? Life sux totally. Now we ve to make a decision... to take a risk, or to wait for things to chill before carry on. Either way, it will not be an easy one. We r waiting for the verdict tonight. He is not even hoome yet, tonight he will know the verdict... whatever the verdict is... its already arrange by god long ago... we cant change anything. We shall see how it goes. But i seriously think its not fair, to both of us. He tot so too... but too bad.. its the house rulex. ARGH!! And i got joyce into trouble today... coz she ve to acc me and i cry so hard in the park tht she dono what to do... then her father scold her when she got home.. i really got her into trouble.. i m feeling so guilty right now. PLx.. pray for me tht everything will be alright.. i m feling so crushed right now.. damn.

haix...today math... i can say i do until i almost cried... prelim surely gone le... hx they all don seems to feel tht i feel like crying wor... think i hide it to well. when ur chem, phy suckx.. u know whats coming for the report card. On the mrt... me also feel like crying... so i REN!!! Then meet him at Yio Chu Kang there...he tot i not happy becoz of last night wor.. haix. Then i say its becoz of my exam... then he tot i very stress and tired... he also cannot see tht i wan to CRY already!!! ARGH!!! After tht go home he still make fun of me..say some physic dono how to do stuff.. then my face change colour.. then he also tot i not happy/angry... is i wan to cry lor.... why he also cannot tell? Why nobody can tell?? Feel so awful the whole day. Then he go watch movie with a fren.. me feel kinda weird lor..haha who wont right? coz its a gal... then he kind of not very happy.. even though he say he is ok.. can tell one lor. He say wan to msg me in the movie, he say he will reply, in the end he say he wanna watch movie le. Then i think better don msg him bah, if not very distracting. So now i seat here bored... cancel renand tuition.. so now can suck thumb le. Wan to cry also cannot cry... dono cry to who. If i call joyce she sure say i cry very long one...call hx also cannot, coz i think she studying. so argh! Suck thumb lor. Argh.. nvm. Now reading his letter.. very sweet.. but... cant cheer me up...exam always make a huge impact in me. Jux tht ppl cant tell... my parents cant even tell.. so suck thumb again. AaaRRgggHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i m back... i will survive!

Hehhe.. finally got my com back. Now damn fast le.. thnx dear! hehe got alot of things to update.. cant wait to update every single things here. We had our prelim practical yest and today. Hmm so far so good bah, got confidence... in the end results come out... hahhaa, lets see who will get the last laugh. Jux hope this time i wont decrease mr kuang salary.. if not he will come after me hahhaha. Paul came to fix my com today... haha, he bake marble cake.. so sweet. hehe, coz he dono how to bake cake, so force himself to learn. Hmm kinda feel really bad, coz eggs damn ex.. and he wasted one cake which is equal to 8 eggs wasted. ALl in all he used 16 eggs. I think if ppl hear this they will come after him haha. Anyway, the cake is HEAVEN!!! Its so nice lor, haha... joyce say so too =X Argh.. now i wanna dl msn messenger it refuse to dl for me... grr..Nxt week prelim le.. in conclusion, hell is near. But this time more confident bah coz at least this time more hard working... mux not fail A SINGLE SUBJECT! Kambate! Everyday, eat study eat study watch cartoon + study eat+study. No doubt after exam sure hit the 50+ mark. Haha.. today my mom cook alot for paul and joyce to eat.. if huixian here then more Re Nao! hahha... PAUL EAT MY FISH EGGS WITHOUT ME KNOWING!!! haha nvm.. got 2..then......MY MOM EAT IT WITHOUT ME KNWOING!!!! And she still smile at me -_-"" IN the end me and joyce eat till so full tht we ve to go take a walk at the gaden behind my house. Hmm u guys still rmb the place we went for lantern festival two yrs ago? The mark is still there.. so memorable.. tht time all of us still so innocent hahha.. yeah "innocent" Muahhaha. HOpe we can celebrate lantern festival this yr.. which is not possible.. then we celebrate nxt yr... together... hmmm.. deal? i dono... haha. Thts all for today guys.. muackz!!! miss u guys so much!