Yxian's little corner

well.. i ve nth to hide.. so i don ve to say a fren this fren my fren... joyce knows most of my frenx.. maybe this fella will ve to refer to as "this fren, a fren" coz not much ppl noe this HIM

Well this HIM.. wrote an entry abt joyce's entry in his blog, giving comments(i can undersatnd why his blood boil... coz he don understand joyce... he is jux writing what he see) when its not even refering to him... joyce is refering to me! and i m not even angry lor.. coz i understand how she feels... both of us are not in the wrong... she wrote tht entry coz she is depress and lonely.. i can understand how it feels.But nvm.. his entry, even though joyce is the main target.. he cant deny tht i m in part of his entry too.Honestly.. HE cares too much abt shooting his own opinion without having a second tot.

I once tot why joyce don feel like toking to me.. now i know the reason why... coz i m feeling tht way too... stress is the word.. not the excuse. Its only abt the understanding part why i m not angry with her entries.

Fella think he put himself into other ppl shoes... honestly fella put himself into his shoe only.

First of all.. poly life is not as great as U think.. its stress.. fucking stress... u say u read 100 pages a week... we read 100 pages a day okie! ur one economic book is equivalent to triple my anatomy and physiology book mind u. we ve one test every 7 weeks... one exam every semester. everyday study til earliest 4 latest 6. joyce ve 3-4 projects to rush.. all to be done in one week... sch assignments... plus work... u think all courses are slack izzit? oh yes.. no matter how busy we shld try to communicate with ur frenx.. very well.. let me ellaborate more on tht....

lesson: 8-4 / 8-6 pm
spend half of the day in sch... fucking tired.... went home ve dinner.. wash up... go online print notes(u think we go online to play games or chat or ve fun) study study study.... read up read up... i wish i can ve time to myself to even slp okie...rmb fren... i ve a bond to keep...

JOyce... most of the day ends at 4... occasional 12pm... rush project or work all the way to night.. go home rush assignments...by then its alraedy so freaking late.. we human will be tired... aint tht true? u think ppl ve nth to do and tell u she is busy so tht she can happily go to slp or what?

Let me reply to this fella blog...joyce(red) fella (yello) mine(purple)

why cant someone juz look me up when i dun have to call them up........------> I tried, U jolly well know tht i tried alot of times.... and ended all IN VAIN.....Either you are too busy..... or dun wanna tok..... (Purely bullshit.....) ---> its not tht ppl ve nth to do.. ppl are busy my fren...not don wan to tok to u... u didnt find out the truth and start shooting ppl.. who is more bullshit

i seriously dunno what i'm talking even..take it as i'm crapping..i'm feeling so confused------> u ought to be---> cant u sense tht she is depresss... if u know her well enough u will know tht she don mean what she say... ppl already depress.. and u still say she ought to be... u claim tht u r concern abt her...then what are all these things u r typing...

but i suddenly feel that i have no other frens..-----> seriously, no such things.... i have been always thr for others + you lei.... thn wat do u treat me as ???! ... wat the....---> she is feeling empty she needs concern... does tht mean tht she don treat u as a fren... if u r her fren.. shldnt u trust her... not doubt her... let me copy what comments joyce ve to say abt this :
firstly, it's mine own thinking that i feel that i have no frens..I SAID FEEL.. he assumed. then nvm. second.. his always there for others + u ---> thinks too highly of himself.. very great meh.. it's oso no such thing. cuz when u say u are there. i dun feel it... cuz instead of making me feel better, it made me feel worse... and it simply shows that u are not understadning at all..i dun treat u as anything...but a fren. A FREN get it... as i have said, it doesnt take anything for u to let others know how u feel..juz keep it in ur heart..

but it's contradicting at times cuz while i want to be alone, i want to know if anyone cares and bother to look for me.. but still i will ignore them.........--------> since u noe tht, thn y do this right ? * Note---> Whole damn thing is SUPER CONTRADICTING....Not just contradicting.... understand ?-----> if u don understand.. then don comment... this sentence means tht when one is alone... one will think if there are ppl who r concern abt her...sometimes when she is depress she will feel tht there are no ppl who r concern abt her. U don need a reason to be depress right... she is confuse abt herself.. cant u see... when u r lonely and depress.. then will ppl care abt u.. by then who will be bother then...


AND this is the sentence... from our dearest fella... after typing out every single comment on his blog: "how ?... ur blood is boiling nw ?... very bu shuang right ?..." what does tht suppose to mean? sense of satisfaction accomplishment?

"but seriously for those hu r reading my blog.... how many of u had actually done this ?..... huh ?.... For the person whom it may concern.... have u done ur part to ME ?..." ---> why not u put urself into other ppl's shoe... u think is fun studying and burning midnight oil everyday... we cant squeeze time for ourselve.. its not tht we don wish to contact u.. honestly... ve u REALLY BEEN UNDERSTANDING ENOUGH to say such sentence. i believe we r not the only one.. other ppl are busy.. i cant say the same thing for other courses.. but i can say the same for MINE and JOYCE's.. u r not the only the she or me ve not been having contact... other close frenx too.. not tht we don cherish our friendship...busy is not an excuse... frenx don ve to chat everyday online, phone etc... frenx shld understand each other's position.... u dare say joyce nv try to contact u... she reply to all ur emails.. u r the one who didnt reply her. If u still rmb, i mentioned tht i will treat u and joyce lunch when i get my bursary n as soon as i collect it... i nv forget tht... i stil rmb i REMINDED u on the day u come to my sch to join me for lunch.If this.. as frenx.. is not enough... what is enough... chat everyday? tok on the phone everyday? ve YOU done ur part as a fren to understand us.... ve you?

We r living in the 21st century man...... and we r both living in the western sector of Singapore.... r ur mind so cocked up to think tht both of us r living LIGHT YRS AWAY ?------> mind u.. you r jux so plain childish... u always say ppl are childish... ve u reflected on urself... in many ways.. u ve been one... i ve not mentioned.. neither shld i.. this entry is jux so childish...

This entry of mine is nt meant to agitate u or wat.... but simply... this kind of thing had happened upteen times.... over and over again..... but seriously, have u thought abt it huh ?..... (actually this kind of things applies to many ppl.... nt just this person)...hope to see some action frm U, if no..... At least u noe and i noe wat it means.... right ?-----> are u a principle.. who are u to say tht? i cant believe the jon i know ve turn out this way... write all this kinds of entries.. u used to be understanding jon... the thing in u ve slowly disappear...m disappointed.. very disappointed.. i don think u wan me to put down a list of things i ve newly discover in u all this times.